what a day to end the year on

Today is the last day of 2014
and for my it has ended how it started for me
cruddy
honestly 2014 hasnt been one of my best years by far
but i have also achieved a lot this year
so i cant moan, just a lot of bad things happened

For the past couple of days i have felt off in myself 
not feeling right or sleeping well - didnt think much of it
but today i woke up and felt like death
i hadnt slept well during the night
but honest i felt awful
my head hurt on the pillow, my nose was clogged,
i felt sickly and my neck hurt and my face felt pressured
i'd got a cold.....a stinking pointless cold
could not believe it as this morning i had to have a blood test
a blood test feeling the way i did
i just wanted to put myself in a coma for a few days
anyway i had tiffin to clean out this morning
which nakerd me out i had to rest afterwards
tiffin wore me out full stop today

I had the blood test i was kept waiting 20mins
they were running late
great gives me more time to get worked up!
but i was determined to be strong today
i felt so sick with the cold never mind the nausea
brought on by needle fear
i was determined i would not throw up and make a show of myself
no matter how much i felt like i was gonna bring my breakfast up

the woman called me in and each time my mum
has to embarrassingly announce how i must lay down for this
the woman how looked like she couldnt give a crap altered the chair
for me to lay back on
she put the strap on my arm - which instantly sets me off
she left it there and went to go get another member of staff
to confirm what i was being tested for
mean while im getting close to passing out
she stabbed me and im thinkg "ok be over in a min"
no she was a slow as anything i was sweating
mum said she could feel the heat radiating off me
why cant i produce this heat on a winter's day!?
she took the needle out and said "its not working"
so she stabbed again and it didnt work again
at this point i was half passed out i couldnt move my body
or open my eyes i could just hear
she wanted to stab the other arm
to which i managed to say "i need a minute otherwise i'm gonna faint"
she wasnt bothered!!!! she just continued
now it worked this time but how i didnt fully pass out i do not know
i did try to be strong
but my god she stabbed me hard it made me yell out!
it took a while for me to be able to stand
all the time being pressured by this woman to leave the room
"we have to be out of here by 11:45" it was 11:55 - not my problem
she was the one running late not me
besides i had rung up in advance saying i needed a double appointment
cus i take a long time to get my blood pressure back up
she wasnt bothered and said "your better off getting the first appointment"
so basically i cant win get told to go at the end and the beginning 
ether way im gonna delay em XD

came home rested after the punishment of being stabbed 3 times
thats the first time they had to stab me more than once
just me luck on  a day i feel like crap

not done much today
i made my brother a case for his tablet

he loved it
went to do my skirt but ran out of energy
and i dont have the trimming i need

took a photo of lily and pinky
but they were hard work
even lily my star model didnt wanna co-operate 
so i gave up
hazel co-operated the other day tho

feel asleep and stayed in bed 2 hours to rest
id like to dance today but i know its not happening
so i would like to try some gentle stretches some yoga maybe

tiffin had the confidence today for the first time to lay out

when they lay like this it means theyre very happy and content
so a nice way for me to end the day seeing him do that next to
me whilst i'm typing away

not staying up tonight - never do
10pm for me or earlier!
whereas my brother has been to the shop for beer and vodka
hes enjoying his night XD

tomorrow all depends on how i feel
but i believe we're having granny over for dinner
happy new year to you all

like a repeat of yesterday!

Good Afternoon~
yes its 4:15pm I thought I'd blog now for a change ^^

Just been practicing some dancing
loving dancing at the moment
apart from this one song =.=
no word of a lie i have recorded, well recorded attempts, 20 times!!!!!!!
really frustrating me now! I dont even like the song that much!
Saw it on youtube before christmas as thought "I could learn that start to finish tonight"
and I did, I learned the whole dance but needed to perfect it
but each time i have go to record i screw it up somehow!!!
really annoying its not difficult!
I think its cus its slow and a bit dull I struggle to get into it
I have recorded it now end of i refuse to do it again
but not sure weather to upload - if i like it
no point in uploading if its rubbish and gonna get hate mail =.=
so we shall see
Hazel was on my bed for the recording ^^

Today mama wanted me to come with her to the shops
i thought "get some air but my god are the shops gonna be packed"
but strangely when we arrived it was quiet, eerily quiet...
so we did the shopping pretty fast
I managed to get:
1x pair of gloves for my car to drive in
1x £4 t-shirt in the sales ^^
15x pairs of socks
yes you heard me correct 15
i got home and threw all my socks out and replaced them~
thats pants and socks taken care of just bras ;)
and here's the t-shirt

pretty cool, I have a thing for Halloween
so to see this top - and in the sales - was amazing for me
I also got a box for under my bed I realized if i turned the current 5
i have under my bed the other way round i can actually get a 6th one under there
needed to be done as i get moaned at for taking up the whole house >.>
so organized some more stuff
ugh is that all i ever do lately!?  
thats the trouble for taking after mama - I'm a clean/tidy freak
Also had an hour's kip as I have slept so bad last few days
i'm shattered

tonight I plan to get started with my brother's tablet cover
he has asked for something to protect it
so skirt goes on standby DX
 hope to get some dancing done also~

Tomorrow I have a blood test
not happy...

sneak peeks at today's photoshoot

Konbanwa~


I started my day on time despite the lack of sleep
i got last night >.>
got pets out and things
I decided to take photos of Hazel for Miho-chan (hazel's original owner)
as she had asked for some cute photos of her
so I did that and she did a wonderful job it was like working with Lily!
so well behaved
hers a sneak preview

yes shes licking my hand!!! she does this a lot ^^

I did the same for tiffin he had a lil photoshoot also
he did really well! he actually stood still for enough time
to get some great shots of him
here he is at first - not co-operating

Hazel photos will be uploaded New year's eve
and Tiffin New year's day
I would like to photograph lily and pinky before i return to work
seems a while now since i photographed them

i was going to make a skirt today - that was the plan
but after the photoshoot, i went on my laptop to look and 
sort the photos, which led me then sorting out the rubbish
on my laptop - a job i have been saving for this holiday
then i sorted and detailed files on the laptop
i ended up clearing out 1/4 of what was one my laptop!!
i've been cleansed!! haha
then mama said "now you've cleared your laptop you can clear 
some of your draws out, theyre a mess!"
i know they are =.= and that was another holiday job to do
so i sorted my underwear draw out
i felt so poor
my socks ew my socks so crusty and old, my pants so old and thread bare
and lets not even mention my bras
so i through a whole bag out of old underwear
texted mia-chan & helina-chan to organize a trip to the city
i am desperate for underwear now so we're going on the 10th - hitting the sales!!
sorted out another draw

went online and ordered pants, as i do prefer them from China
theyre made for smaller people and as i dont have a butt they suit 
me better than the pants sold in the city
then me and mama were looking at accessories online
everything today all took time
i had a big dance session today
then rested i was done

so i never did even start that skirt after all that
the day just went to other things /:
so i shall start it tomorrow!!
here's what im working with~

New Songs and journey into Ice

Evening~


Today I spent my morning doing a few jobs
and made a case for my satnav
A friend from youtube gave me songs from
the Babyraids and Fairies albums
i was truly happy - so unexpected!!
so a lot of time went to sorting my ipod ^^

I had to set off at 2pm for work
my god the roads were terrifying!!!
i couldnt stop at one point due to the ice
and i skidded also!
but came back in one piece
the satnav was amazing really pleased with it
apart from the journey being hectic the party
was fine and i enjoyed my time being assistant
to sarah-san shes lovely ^^

came home and relaxed really with my tiffin
trying to get a bit of dancing before last part
of Top Gear starts!!

oh yeah i saw this on a car today
i found it amazing!!!

im immature right? haha

Oh Tiffin~

Evening everyone

today i spent the entire day writing up notes for work
basically before i broke up for christmas hols
i got taught all the lessons i will go teach
so i had A4 pages of notes that needed re-writing
i kept putting it off til i realized today that i dont have
as much time off as i thought!!!
so i sat at my desk doing it, swapping animals around
letting them all have a stretch Tiffin joined me in my room
he's in now for the 3rd time today
he has now learned to go through the hall to the stairs
up the stairs and into my room - clever bunny
my brother sorted my satnav out for me as i have
work tomorrow about 33mins away says google
passing through a town called Bunny :D

I have been reading today finished another book - demon day
it was amazing i want to read the next one - demon dark! 
i would like to do some dancing now before Top Gear starts
yes i watch Top Gear haha

I was researching Netherland dwarfs today - Tiffin's breed
and I learned that they are a clever and active breed
for a little bunny he doesnt need much food but needs a lot of exercise
I researched his colouring as well he is a Siamese Smoke Pearl
quite a beautiful one actually as far as the other variations go
here he is my little winter baby

tomorrow i have a birthday party to do with Sarah-san
looking forward to it never worked with Sarah-san before
i like seeing how everyone teaches ^^

mate ne

Boxing day - Mia-chan's birthday!

good evening
SIGHHH its good to be back in my room
knowing i havent got to please or entertain anyone 
apart from the pets of course XD
My family have returned home now
and I plan on having some ME time over the holidays
altho I do have a few jobs that need doing

Today tho  I woke up late for me 9oclock!!
mama woke me up with Hazel ^^
i couldnt wake up i felt groggy and my head was killing me on my pillow
had i been drinking!? haha nah i dont drink
felt like i had been tho
so i got myself ready as i knew i was gonna visit mia-chan
as it her 23rd birthday today :D
having the misfortune of having a birthday on Boxing Day is rough
on mia-chan as all her friends are with family
and theres no where decent to go spend the day as most places are closed
so I have been making the effort since her 21st to go and see her
which makes her ever so happy :D
I sat and talked with her and her boyfriend for a bit then he very kindly
gave me and mia-chan some space to talk ^^
she opened her present and loved it which made me very happy
so i had a couple of hours with her

then i walked from hers to grannys house
picked my cousin sarah-chan up and walked to my house
had an hour or so here then went as a family to grannys for lunch/dinner
which was ok but grannys house is dull and very hot
i ended up feeling rather sick and just wanted the comfort 
of my own bedroom its just boring there
and granny has had company for 3 days so i didnt feel bad for leaving her
it was 5:30pm after all

since then been home let tiffin come in and stretch 
and it has been snowing!!! snowing!!! big snow flakes as well
so thats settling and mama is sweating she hates snow XD
gonna do some dancing then be with hazel and tiffin

tomorrow not sure what im doing
sunday i have a birthday party to do~

MERRY CHRISTMAS

MERRY CHRISTMAS~

The day everyone has been getting ready for has finally arrived huh
I had a rough night's sleep typically
i was cold in the night ><
anyway i got up this morning and dad got up as usual - just another day in the year for him
i got into mama's bed and cuddled up next to her :3
she didnt mind and cuddled me and stroked my hair - true happiness
i sat there laying "my best gift is that i still have my family and their health"
love my mama ^^
i went got the pets out as usual, theyre ready to have a stretch in the morning
had breakfast and then started opening~
me and my brother are always grateful what we get, never been those children
to receive ipads and xboxs for christmas you know? some right spoilt brats out there
we have never been treated like that luckily! there for we are grateful for the gifts we get
everyone got me such lovely presents i loved them
i took a quick photo of some of them

kawaii ne
my outfit for today also

a dress my friend gave to me she didnt want
i made it smaller added pearl buttons, lace on the bottom and bow at the top 
thought it looked cute

id like to do some dance practice before my cousins come round
but might not be that lucky
theyre coming over with granny and we're having a christmas dinner together
should be nice
i have christmas comedy DVDs out ready to watch - hate christmas films!

anyway thats all from me hope you have a lovely christmas!

Christmas Eve! Snow Halation my last chrismas dance

its christmas eve everyone!!!
I'm currently altering a dress a friend gave me

my family is coming down later as well
i have much to do :)
youtube copyrighted my dance so here it is for you all

have a good christmas!!!
i may blog tomorrow
oh and here's my living room and tree if i havent already shown you
i did it by myself all by myself
bet you can tell what decorations i've made XD

almost christmas isn't it

Hiya

Today I woke up and I thought it was christmas eve
dont know why, but the I realized we still have another day
to go before the big day!
not sure if im looking forward to christmas or not really
my family has never been a christmasy family
so i have grown up the same really
having family over stresses me out after a while dont know why
i have to take my self away from it all for a breather
to be honest i feel like i've already had my christmas present - Tiffin
honestly i said to mama "if i have nothing to open on christmas
day i would be totally fine with that cus i have Tiffin"
hes just been a great gift into my life
he is a scamp and likes to bit but i love him
ive had him a whole week now ^^
i took a cute photo of him today

i went out with mama did a lil shopping
didnt buy anything of interest 
came home and recorded a dance for tomorrow
my last christmas dance
here's the photo~

please look forward to it

and ive just played with the pets today as usual and read
not done a great deal but its how i wanted to spend me day
i have a treat for myself tomorrow evening
self heating face pack and after a whole pomagranit fruit to myself
its been in the fridge waiting for me....

anyway gonna do some dance practice for dances to upload after christmas

christmas photo of the only group shot i have of them

now missing kippy and popu 
may they rest in peace
this photo was taken at the start of december

see you all tomorrow~

Let off the hook

Konbanwa 

Today I was fated to have a blood test
i was dreading it
and then the clinic rang up to cancel as they had too
many staff off sick so they gave me a new appointment 
of new years eve
phew i got let off
felt really pleased haha 
stupid isnt it cus ive still got to have it done!

anyway that morning i spent chasing Tiffin round
he was mega hyper - thats baby bunnies for you
but last night HE GAVE ME MY FIRST LICK!!!
i was so happy and cuddled him
i showed him his new blanket he walked on it once
then sat next to me the whole time
so ether he didnt like it or he just preferred to be sat next to me
i didnt mind :)
his eye is looking loads better
he's still unsure of what hazel is tho haha

my brother took this shot of hazel in her bag she loves so much
he edited the background obviously but cute isnt it

my friend dom-kun came over today
hadn't seen him since Whitby holiday
he looked well and gave me a xmas card to open xmas day
i gave him his pressie too
we went to a little town where my college was
it is filled with charity shops so thats what we did
had a good rummage!
I got a pair of black trousers with lacing up the legs
and a black top/dress with cream lace and flower detailing
thought it would be good for work
then we went for a hot drink and home

since then i have done another dance finally
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oBVr_T8pN2M&feature=youtu.be

tomorrow who knows what im doing
tonight im making a bday card for mia-chan's birthday on boxing day~

Grave cleaning and new Blanket for Tiffin

Evening all~

Today I was still unable to record my dancing!!
everyone keeps being home and its frustrating me
but never mind I guess, tomorrow I plan to record them
even if my brother is home
And tomorrow Dom-kun is coming over to see me which should be nice
but before that leisurely social time comes I gotta go for another
damn blood test, all i can say is I cant be as bad as I was last time
cant wait to get it over with, thinking about it makes me sick

today I was sewing Tiffin's Blanket
and finished it :D

cute isnt it
he will keep this for the rest of his life
i stitched his name into it and his date of birth as well

Then I cleaned the pets graves 
it needed doing but I was waiting til Autumn had finished
so i could get rid of the dead leaves and twigs 
so I did that, washed the grave stones and softened the soil
looks loads better and I layed a flower for each of them
we have the
grey stone rabbit which Sky my first bunny is buried
the ginger guinea pig were Nutty the guinea big is buried
the black mole were Buttons the hamster is buried (we used to say he was like a mole)
the Black guinea pig is were Popuri is buried
and finally Kippy is buried under the Brown rabbit

our little Sanctuary of Memories

tonight Im gonna practice my dances for tomorrow

Christmas~

Evening everyone~
Sorry about yesterday
there's me saying "I will keep up with bloggin" and I didnt blog yesterday!
I went over to my friend Mia-chan's house at 4pm didnt come home til 10pm
by which time Im usually in bed!
I was a lot longer than I thought I would be!
But I had a good time with her and Helina-chan
we exchanged christmas pressies
I hope they like what I made for em
We made pasta together for dinner
then for pudding we had muffin and white hot chocolate
i was in heaven
came home and saw Tiffin
shouldnt have really but I couldnt resist! but he ratty and tired 
ended up biting me loads so i took him to bed

Today we noticed on Tiffin's eye it looked inflamed around the eye
so I said to mum "he's going vets ive only had him like 4 days"
so we booked him there and then 
the vet wasnt too concerned but gave us some anti-inflammatory eye drops
to give him twice a day, whilst we were there she weighed him
and he's put on 10g since I brought him ^^ growing quickly!
and she asked "do you have the voucher for his free injections?"
and I did I took all his paper work with me
and she gave him his injection there and then!
I was quite shocked I wasnt expecting him to get it so soon!
he was old enough but I wasnt going to get him done til January
so i suppose it saved us going twice really
next time he goes will be in a few months time too cut off his manly hood
we will get re-reimbursed for the eye drops from the pet shop
he seems fine in himself tho i wanted to catch it early
since he is very small and thin
he wouldnt be able to fight illness off very well that is for sure!

I have been making him a quilt/blanket today as well
kippy had one so its only fair :)
its looking really cute and when it's done i will photograph it
it will be his for life
i always give my rabbits a "comfort blankie" i call it :)
 
heres a few photos from yesterday~

  

Forgive me, I'm here

good evening~

I just want to say sorry for my absence lately really
It's my fault I am not making excuses 
I typed up what i could bare to type up, on Devaintart
I did not want to keep writing the same thing over and over it
was painful, so I just posted the link
sorry

but I'm here now~
my heart is slowly healing
I have finished work for Xmas now
so i have more free time
and will get back into blogging and dancing
i havent danced for a week!
no wonder i'm depressed XD

Today was my last day of work but it was enjoyable
and I have been playing with Tiffin bless him
He met Hazel today he was a bit timid round her
having never seen a guinea pig before
Kip grew up with pigs so meeting Lily and Pinky was fine
but he ended up biting her ear, she squealed, he freaked
he was really frightened of her talking 
but shes ok no worries, they did manage to eat together
so fingers crossed they might be ok to be friends :D

I am gonna get some dancing done now
as I have nothing to upload for tomorrow!

Anyway take care all and I will be back to regular bloggin~

new bunny!

I will start blogging and dancing again promise!

http://crafty-lil-vixen.deviantart.com/journal/Tiffin-500828299

I love kippy

http://crafty-lil-vixen.deviantart.com/journal/I-love-you-Kippy-500257028

The Decs are up!!

Evening  all~

excuse my absence yesterday I remembered at 10:00pm
I hadn't blogged and I was going to be and could not be arsed :P
Yesterday was ok I had a lunch club to do
and it was  hard work kids understood nothing
so I'm taking the same lesson in again next week to continue with

Today I put the decs up yay!!
But before then I had a doctors appointment  ugh
to find out the results of my blood test~
and it turns out I have an issue and I need a retake
yes another blood test!
but I volunteered believe it or not
as if I have got this problem to cure it i need 18 months worth
of medication, and I rather double make sure  I have
this problem before I drug myself up for months
so I wasnt impressed with all that
even the doctors said "you've never been normal" >.>

Then I had a hair cut yay!
I needed a good trim so that felt good
and I made this for my hair dresser and a card

she loved them

came home and put the decs up which took all afternoon
that and wrapping up all the presents
took ages
so now im chilling out with hazel and kip on my bed
and dance practice
I uploaded a dance today i recorded yesterday
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hLyfl4RBNf4
tomorrow I have got a birthday party to do~