Evening
God I could not sleep last night, I couldnt lay down without being in horrendous pain in my intestines. So I was up til 2:15am. I did keep going back to bed to try sleep but the pain was far too much. I was up playing okami and watching youtube. All very dull when you just want sleep!
I hit the alarm to shut up at 6am and fell back to sleep, didnt even register that Jack left the house. I needed sleep. I woke up at 9am. My stomach still hurting.
I got ready and mum picked me up at 11am. We went to a garden centre. We ordered tea and cake. It took AGES to come. seriously I have cooked meals in less time. I got a milky bar brownie it was SOOOO sweet, I couldnt finish it so I wrapped it up and took it home for Jack to consume. We looked round a bit of the garden centre but not all of it as Id had enough. I was also having a hot sweat. I got a new oil for the diffuser and some more cacti soil.
Mum dropped me off home
I didnt have lunch til 2pm as I didnt feel like it and couldnt face settling my stomach off. I ate it and there was that pain! I sat doing some drawing as I wanted to plan out some art work. I laid on my bed for an hour. But once Jack came home I knew Id have food to do, food to EAT
I honestly couldnt face my dinner and mum gave me homemade cakes too. And whilst these past few days I have been over eating trying to enjoy food and put weight on, I just couldnt bring myself to eat dinner. I knew I wouldnt be able to get out of it. I ate and yup I have the dreadful pain that I wont escape from now til when I fall asleep tonight. Wonder if I will be able to sleep? Its like laying on a brick, its a dull bruised pain that you cant escape from
So tomorrow I am starting my diet in the hopes to take away some inflammation before I go away with Jack. I have meat in the fridge for breakfast. I am not looking forward to the diet but it am looking forward to not being in pain, digesting properly, not having a noisy uncomfortable stomach, sleeping without discomfort and actually getting energy from my food.
We did say we would go out for cake tomorrow me and Jack but not sure I want to. I have had enough of food. I will get him to weigh me in the morning before the weekly food shop
I hope the food shop doesnt tire me out for the rest of the week like it did last week -_____-
so yeah I start tomorrow :/ its not easy or fun but gotta be done. luckily I have plenty of weight on me so when I drop weight I wont go boney. First time I did the diet I could see my ribs!
wish me luck~
