I'm not going to sugar coat it
Today Tiffin passed away
I can't believe I've even had to type that sentence
It's set me off crying again I'm afraid
4 hours ago I got home to find my mum at the front door telling me to come in
instantly I knew something was wrong (I thought I'd done something wrong!!)
Then I thought 'crap is it pinky? has she died?'
She started to cry and said "you know what I'm going to say don't you?"
"no, mum please whats happened? I want to know"
She eventually got out the words
"At 1pm Tiffin passed away. I'm so sorry Jo. I had seen him only a few minutes
previously as I was putting the girls outside. I heard a few thumping noises, went into
the shed and he was just laying there outside his cage. I just knew he had gone. I went to go
see if he had really just died and he had. I thought about rushing him to the vets but I knew
he had just passed away. I think he'd had a heart attack or a fit and just gone. I rang dad he came
home immediately and agreed tiffin had passed away and we buried him together. I'm so sorry.
I didn't want to tell you until you were home"
Well after that I think I must have reacted the way a mother is told their child has passed away
I was just shaking sobbing mess
I was just numb and trying to form words over my crying
I needed to know everything
mum said he'd been fine all morning he had a treat and been out with the girls, eating the grass,
had a fuss. just normal happy bunny
Heck before i went to work I was chasing and playing with him and gave him a treat. He'd even jumped
into the girls run this morning (without them in it) and I had to get him out! such a scamp.
He was totally fine
It's shocking how quickly life can be taken from us
I never saw this coming. truly I didn't.
In a way I'm glad I didn't have to put him down but this was just so unexpected
yes he still had lil cough still which was going and was still on daily anti-biotics
but apart from that he was perfectly healthy
he'd put weight on since he got sick. he was doing fine.
and now hes gone.
I've never bonded with a rabbit as quickly as I did tiffin
there was something about him that from the second I saw him I knew
it had to be him. He was meant for me and my family
He settled in well and was very social with my family and guineas
and just became a part of the family in the short 2 years we had him.
I can't express my sadness and heart ache.
I am going to miss him so much. Mum said she will miss him and she cried too
he was the closest she'd ever been with any of my rabbits
My love for him was so deep. I would have done anything for him
No matter how crap my day had been, just seeing his little face would make my own face smile
and everything would feel better instantly because he just made me feel happy
he was truly my best friend and we were there for each other
some people may think it's sad that i was this close my bunny
but i dont care I loved him and he was very loved, cared for, appreciated, cherished and spoiled
I wish tiffin wasnt ripped away from my life as suddenly as he was
id do anything to get him back but i know life isn't like that
so i resign myself to saying
X please rest in peace tiffin X
I will always love you
and thank you for the precious memories you gave to me
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My first rabbit Sky I got 8th March 2005
Tiffin my last rabbit died 10th March 2017
I have owned rabbits for 12 years
I'm 25
So for almost half my life I've had a rabbit
it's going to be very hard with out one
It's too soon to talk about 'another one'
my parents have never denied me of another rabbit
but mum said she'd like me to wait for a bit
she'd told me that when I lost Kip but 2 days later I found Tiffin!
So we shall see. You never know what the future holds
personally I have said that IF I decide that I do in fact want another bunny
then I'd like a female. Because I feel I will never get another beautiful prince like tiffin again
