my pumpkin cushion before i forget
I couldnt sleep - no surprise
but the sheer amount of pain I was in last night, I felt like crying
even now i am not sure how it didnt break me
i stayed in bed til 2am til i was that tense and knotted up and stressed that i had to get up
and i stayed up til 4am, read in bed for half hour then tried to sleep
then i woke up at 7am dripping in sweat from having a nightmare...
sodding nightmares, i have so many when im unhappy and stressed
this one was about being in some abandoned warehouse, i could hear people and screaming so i searched and searched til i found the source. It was a long ramp where people were tied up like they were to be hung then rode down the ramp whilst being hung then at the bottom a blade met them where it finally ended their suffering by clieving their head clean off. The sounds, screams, blood, images it was horrible and i felt sick thinking "what if they find me??"
so i woke up and somehow i fell asleep which i think was due to exhaustion more than anything
this morning i did half hour of dancing, followed straight up with half hour of yoga
i was a dripping mess and in need of a shower
afterwards i went to bed really as i was shattered
i got up and had some food which was 2pm and my first meal of the day
then i went for my 45min walk so ive done almost 2 hours worth of exercises today
i sat outside with mum with a brew when i got back which was nice
then i spoke to jack for the first time in almost a week
it was good to see him and speak with him not that ether of us had much to say as were always in contact anyway.
afterwards i helped mum with the dinner as she had a bad headache and couldnt think straight
after dinner i did some drawing and i got pretty far
its looking cute :)
i have a couple more physio exercises to finish off then next i am gonna sit with Oz and then play my switch
tomorrow probably just drawing and exercise
