I didn't sleep great i was so cold
woke up loads cold
but stayed i bed all night so thats a plus
i got up at 7am
my nails last night tho, my god im so proud of em
just look at these buggers
they look almost professional
so was happy with em~
This morning I had doctors and how you can run 40 mins late for your 2nd appointment of the day is beyond me, what happens when your like 10th appointment of the day?
so i was not impressed with what the doctor had to say
i know i have my illnesses for life but hearing him say "youre gonna be like this for life you know" yes i know!!! no need to rub it in!! i just want help
so the help i got
im staying on higher dose of pain killer (did not want that particularly)
my antidepressant is being doubled (did not want that as well as higher pain killer)
to be referred FOR THE THIRD TIME IN MY LIFE to the sodding pain clinic
honestly only last month did i kick the clinic treatment and now i gotta go back
and ive been twice already in my life
theres nothing they can do >.>
i came back and danced my frustration out
didnt get any further with any dances but practiced what i knew
cus i need to improve
i had a shower
went on laptop and got ready for work
work ahhhhhhhhh so hard!!!!!
theyre trying to train me on biology ><
which im enjoying but its difficult
rebecca had left me instructions on what she wanted from me
and she had been sketchy on the details
and told alan he had to mean and not help much ><
so hard!
i had to make similar bacteria up i made on friday
which i could remember but its the maths i struggle with
im gonna ask dad for help if i can
cus i need it explaining
but i managed to do the lesson prep and make the bacteria
both of which alan checked over
jack kept looking at me and i practically hissed like a cat at him "stop watching me you make me nervous!!" but i got it all right anyway
i had to leave the bacteria out to cool then it needed to go in the fridge, we got to the end of the stairs upon leaving and i said "did anyone put the bacteria in the fridge?" no
so i ran and did that thank god i did cus it would have been dead come morning!
so glad i remembered that bit!!
jack told me he showed off dragonite to alan and that other teachers had seen my doodle of the 4 of us and said how good it was ^^
no one is creative at work im the odd one out
whereas all my friends are creative so im used to being around creativity
at work i stand out XD
i came home had a brew with Oz and mum
about falling asleep
im tired but im also frustrated and i dont know how to unwind
its cus i ache so much and ive had enough
im tired and achy and yeah
jack thinks he's found a flat to live in with a mate and gonna
sign paperwork tomorrow after work so thats exciting
i hope it goes through for him
hes asked me to crop the image of the 4 of us he wants just his head
so ive got that to do at some point
tomorrow no plans as of yet~
