Evening
I did a good 45mins sesh last night did a HIIT workout which wasnt too bad but didnt enjoy it, had a bath and a pamper then watched Inuyasha with Jack
Woke up a lot in the night cus I wake up to Jack breathing/snoring. I got up at 7:30am and thought "If I get my chores done this morning I will have all day to actually do something for myself"
So I cleaned the toilet, did laundry etc
we went shopping and I cleaned Oz out and made soup all before midday, Jack was fixing a leak I came across this morning under the kitchen sink, he did so well fixing it ^^
So just when I thought Id have some actual ME time
Jack's mum txt can she come over to drop some stuff over.....
cant say no can I when we see my mother so much
So she came over with Jack's step dad, but it wasnt dropping anything over no no it was a come in and have a brew stay.....its lovely to see them I like seeing them and all that. its just I had worked so hard this morning so I could have some time to myself, to draw, to mong out, to not have to talk or entertain people. So that was it then. Afternoon gone as they didnt leave til gone 3:30pm -_________-
I ranted off at Jack that I get no time to do anything for myself, he gets to game EVERYDAY, I have to sit with Oz EVERY NIGHT as hes MY reasonability, I NEED to work out EVERY DAY to help my pain so I lose time to that and for what? doesnt help anyway, I miss out on nice tasty sweet food cus of this diet and for what? doesnt work anyway. Massive rant. I was tired and fed up of life
I have done nothing for me this whole weekend
a whole weekend gone to others.
Jack told me to go get some drawing done so I did, and then I had to break off shortly to do dinner, I didnt even have my 4pm brew cus I wanted to draw. I did have my 4pm tablets and for some odd reason took a sleeping tablet! I was too busy talking to jack and was thinking 'hope I sleep tonight' and took a sleeping tablet without thinking!! I chilled out tho! Pain killers and sleeping tablet really helped me chill out XD
After dinner I did a bit more drawing, so my blood bath girl is coming along but its slow and Im on the bath which I will find difficult.
Jack is sitting with Oz as he said he will sit with Oz for me, then I will work out (pointlessly) and have a bath and go to bed. To be back at sodding work tomorrow morning where I will have to endure another 5 days before I can recover and maybe do something for myself.
life sucks
why did I move out? do everything round here. Life is no better
