Evening
To say Jack didnt come to bed with me last night I did actually sleep really well. Dont think I even noticed when he came to bed. I got up for a huge wee at 1:30am but soon fell back to sleep.
We didnt take Oz to daycare/mums as its not worth it. He came out the garage by himself so I think he is feeling a bit happier today. I noticed when I took him home this morning that he had eaten a fair amount of food during the night which I was relieved about as he had hardly ate all day yesterday including his carrot which isnt like Oz really.
School was ok just at times very stressful - staff made is stressful
but its because it was open evening for the next year to come up so parents were bring up their year 6 children to see if they want to come to our school next year. It was made stressful as no one seemed to know what they were doing or what they wanted! I got stressed. For 15mins it felt like my medication was stuck in my throat from taking them at lunch. My stomach kept getting churned by anxiety and stress so it hurt. Bloody teachers >.>
We came home and I let Oz out who safe to say has made up for food from yesterday >.> eating me out of house and home! we had a cup of tea and a piece of fruit loaf and sat for 30mins which took us up 4:50. It is now 8:40pm and we have just sat down. We had 20mins sit for dinner between then. But its just exhausting we've been up since 6:15am. Just none stop always something to do always chores always work. I never get to do anything for myself anymore. I was grateful for Jack doing me another biology test and stuff but on the whole. I just never get time for myself anymore.
This saturday morning is going to Jack's family as its his mum's birthday
the evening is going to his friends. So I have effectively lost my saturday as I will have chores to do between then.
I envy people on instagram posting so much art each week or several times a week. I couldnt hope to achieve this!! But Jack says people like that often are night owls and have no job or life. Which I know in a lot of cases, is true. But still I do envy free time.
I will try not to moan. I should be grateful for everything I have
Im tired I know I am
So I am gonna take my bunny home in a minute. Going to give him some fuss then take him, hot chocolate then bed. I feel the bags under my eyes are actually pulling my eyes down!
Tomorrow
ugh tomorrow
another full on day
I have my first biology test just before midday, 2pm I have occupational health ringing for an hour. After school Jack has the doctors.
so yeah another exhausting day
