Monday, 13 September 2021

cried 3 times at work under 2 hours must be a new record

 Evening


despite having sleeping tablets I woke up like every 2 hours....why!? well unfair

I felt shattered for school

I took Oz to daycare and he seemed to be ok actually and mum text later to say he was ok

I on the other hand was not ok


I was home by 10:10am.....and in those 2 hours of being in school I cried 3 times!!

could not handle what was going off around me. Just didnt feel and wasnt well really. We did another covid test before leaving the house and all was well But I am still getting over this cold which is just a raw sore throat now. Im not having to cough much but I do feel like crap. Keep shivering even tho I am not actually cold and just feel exhausted. I have now passed it on to Jack hes full of cold, like how I was on saturday

so anyway, after crying 3 times I said to Jack I wasnt well. He had said to stay home anyway but I didnt want to rack up any more school days off sick. So he said to go home, he had been so supportive through my tears and things. I asked if I could take my painting home and just do display work from home. He was fine with that. To be honest I think he just wanted me home XD

I got home and went to bed for an hour after a cup of tea as my body was just shaking it was stressed out.

I got up and painted and painted. Mum came over for lunch and brought Oz over, she only stayed an hour as I said I needed to work and she was draining my energy.

I kept painting and sitting cus I was flagging a bit.

Jack got a lift home and we had a cup of tea then I did some more painting

reluctantly made dinner, did some more painting as I was determined to get it finished and I did

Watered my plants and noticed several have rabbit teeth marks on.....thanks Oz


I feel I should exercise as I havent done any for 4 days but I have found it difficult just to get through the day never mind extra. But I need to now. I have been eating endless sugar and my joints are hurting from lack of stimulation/exercise....so I found a video of kpop dancing it doesnt look hard. Its 20mins but I dont think I will do the full time


as for tomorrow....not sure yet.....apart of me thinks "stay off and recover" but I dont want to. I might just go in and see how I do again. Or if I am like death in the morning I will have it off.