Evening
I could not sleep last night
was in too much pain and felt sick so I got up for a hot chocolate and more pain killers
I did just about sleep after that, woke up at 3:30am to get comfy again then at 5:30am I woke up from a dream I was having, watching a guy get buried under hot coals and I could hear and smell it. Woke up at that point. But couldnt get off to sleep so got up really
Oz had no time for me this morning, literally used me for a treat and that was it!
I just about got through my school day
it was a hard effort tho 0.0
my day started by seeing jack at the school gates - he was early....
good job too as i couldnt get into school my ID card kept flashing red, jack's flashed red then green. So he let me in and i went to IT department, chris wasnt in yet but karen was. I went to whine to her and she said the system had an update on friday then its been down since. So if you werent in on friday I missed the update which isnt usually a problem but having the system go down too literally kicked my card out the school, i wasnt the only one as several members of staff dont work fridays. She told me to come back later
I got back to the prep room, but of course I literally cant open any door in school so i couldnt get to anything! my first period was prepped so after an impatient 10 mins i went back to IT and chris was in ^^ and said "just fixed it, you can be the first to have their card fixed" woo ^^ chris is good to me, I started talking about pain killers. Chris when his knee is bad, takes more Zapain than me and karen my god, she put me to shame. I take 2x 75mg of pregablin she takes 3x 100mg pregablin....i will never worry about overdosing again not especially after she told me you can go up to 900mg!!!
I left there and went to tell jack what id learned about pain killers XD
the chris came to do my assessment and he sorted out a few things, the 2 chest of drawers that cramped my desk have gone, hes given me an amazing chair and getting me a foot stool to rest my feet on!! he says "you have to sit properly tho" i said i would give it my bestest go XD
then I had all on prepping a mitosis prac my god the teacher was being a pain in what she wanted, all 3 of us got involved and only just got it done on time. was there a thank you? nope
i was peeved, got it twice more then done!
On my break which wasnt until 11:15, got in at 7:50am i hadnt stopped i was dead!
i said to jack and julia my heart keeps going out of rhythm and they teamed up saying i had to get it looked at as its been 3 week >.> so i rang doctors up and the strangely got me in tonight...odd usually its a 3 week wait XD so then i rang vets to book Oz in as im going doctors he can suffer too and go vets XD ive booked him in for his jabs that were due in June, the receptionist said they still had a back log of jabs to do! id given them plenty of time too. But thought its best to get him done, what with winter coming up, i want him to be his healthiest. sadly i still wont be able to go in the room with him.....
Head of science came to see me and asked if i was ok as i had had 2 days off last week
i told him im ok and getting looked at, he said if i want to talk or if i need help he was there :)
I had my pain clinic telephone call
she told me how well i was doing and that i am prescribed to take more Zapain if i wanted to (same amount as chris all along) i just hadnt understood my dosage. so yay i can take double what i have been! but i wont, not unless i NEED to. she said i need to relax more like do more stuff to relax me and have chill out time. even if it is just breathing exercises or craft work.
i finished up at school, somehow
got home and sat with mum and Oz with a brew, he snored on the sofa....honestly
then i did 45mins of yoga not that i could be bothered to even get off the sofa! but somehow did it
I cut some fabric out to make 2 more masks for jack, its only the backing fabric and the elastic and the wire but gave me something to do
after dinner i went doctors and yeah nothing to worry about it, just stressed and anxious he said its ectopic heartbeat and should go in 3 months, i could have blood tests if i wanted to but i said i was fine. and i left, then came home to put pyjamas on, now gonna get my lad
tomorrow is school
should be ok, then when i come home i make wrap a few things up that have sold on ebay
