Evening
i struggled to sleep last night. No surprise really as I was aching from painting and also had a very busy mind. So we got up and I took yet more pain killers -______- we were only up til 11pm tho :)
I slept ok from there but woke up at 8am because Jack was chasing Oz out the bedroom XD he had made a break for it XD the git.
This morning I got my stuff ready for school, hoping it would maybe help with some anxiety. It did not. My stomach has been in knots and hurting everytime I eat. So I asked Jack if he would come on a walk with me as it was sunny but not hot it was perfect ^^ I felt better for getting out.
Mum came to join us for lunch then talked to me for a little bit before popping to the shops. She had wrote on her calendar that I was back to school today so she was happy to find out that I was still home today XD
she left, and despite Jack telling me to have an easier day today, I couldnt. Massively restless.
So I painted the handle on the garage as mum gave me back my paint and now the door is done and looks so much better~
I then washed my wheelie bin, it was suppose to be black but was no longer black as it got covered it crap when we had the pavement done. As the guys came on bin day and my bin happened to be too close to where they were working. So I cleaned my bins. I used detol. I completely forgot that you need to wear gloves with detol otherwise you get chemical burns...I thought the stinging was from the hot water. But long after I had finished the job, my hands stung! they still sting now to be honest. My own stupid fault. I then planted grass seed in the dirt Jack had levelled as we need grass to grow before the weeds take hold.
at this point, even tho Jack had chosen to come out and do jobs besides me
he told me to STOP
he was right. He worries. I do too much. I know I do.
He could see I was struggling to sit still so he suggested I have Hammington time whilst he lay next to me on his switch. I did that for 90mins and drifted in and out of sleep. It was good to be honest. I needed that and didnt realise how tired my body was. I bleed that adrenal gland dry, I live off my adrenaline.
I then got up to make a cake so I would have something to snack on at school. I didnt rise that well but I think its cus I used coconut flour instead of self raising. I did try to make it 'healthier' and used wheat cereal and oats as the bulk of it. Does resemble a heavy brick XD I like making cakes without weighing anything
I made dinner which was alright
then I had a quick pamper and had a bath, when I got out I pampered Jack XD he let me ^^ he didnt protest. He laid his head on a pillow on my crossed legs on the lounge floor and I used acids and scrubs on his face. Hes in the bath now washing it off. I hope he feels smooth after it. I have sorted him out a face sheet to do afterwards~
trying to make us feel fresh for the new school year. I like how he joins in with me.
Oz used the opportunity to leg it out the room. I swear I leave the door open 10 seconds and hes gone. Hes going to miss us tomorrow. He has literally had us to himself for almost 5 weeks. Hes been ether in the garden or lounge. Which ever he chose. He has been a house bun really. So to be locked up for almost 5 hours probably wont sit well with him tomorrow bless him. I know I will come home to find a savaged hutch -_____- he does have paddies.....spoilt loaf
so yeah that was my last day off work. Last day of the summer holidays 2022
I got a lot done. I mean so did Jack but some of my highlights were;
painted garage door (after waiting a year), painted the porch door, 2 massages, cleaned the house, had friends over, smear test done for 3 years, hair cut, made mia's wedding card and birthday card, completed my christmas and birthday presents for this year, cleaned the garage out, tried new recipes, went out for jack's birthday, brought a new chair, BBQ with jack's family, sorted cars out, had the pigs, sent Miho a baby shower box. God yeah I got A LOT done in those weeks! I am glad as I sure as hell did not wanna waste this time off!!
Tomorrow
stew morning so up at 6am to put stew on and then go school. School SHOULDNT be too bad as its insec day and I always skip all the whole staff meetings! and therefor I am totally alone in the school! so its shouldnt be too bad. I can not be arsed to talk to people.
How was your holiday?
yeah good. yours?
good thank you.
no one actually cares about each others holidays. It is a pointless exchange I have zero energy for. So I am gonna try and avoid people. Thats my mission tomorrow!
then mummy is coming over for lunch, then shes helping me with my car stuff. As I need to get rid of the corsa and start up with my ford fusion. I had a meltdown about it the other day but I feel better about it now and knowing that she will be with me helps even more! Then we can finally use our new car! Jack is going halves on the car with me so this will be his first car! up to now hes been using MY car, which is fine and I offered to buy the car this time but thought id offer if he wanted to have ownership this time round and he does ^^
so hopefully tomorrow wont be too bad??? Just gotta get the day done
next holidays is half way through october. september will be stressful and busy.
