Evening
I couldnt sleep last night, my stomach was off so I was having to go make frequent trips to the toilet, combined with bad aches and I was struggling to sleep without Jack there. He came to bed just after midnight and I was playing on my switch after being out of bed for a few hours. We played on switchs til 1am and I did sleep then.
waking up at 9am to have to go again to the toilet. I have the same pain when I have leaky gut....
so this morning I felt tired, whats new
I got motivated and wanted to go out with my jack but he ruined all my plans by telling me I wasnt well to go out T^T everything I suggested he wouldnt let me do. He was right. Hes not being controlling he just knows me very well and knows I take too much on and push myself!
so I felt deflated and then suggested a lil walk round the block - this I was allowed to do. I was glad as it was sunny out ^^ But that walk was enough -_____- I was exhausted. I had a quick sit down with a tea then somehow cleaned my bathroom. No matter how I am feeling I will not miss a weekly clean of my bathroom. I love my bathroom. So grateful for it.
we had lunch then I fell asleep for 90mins
I got up and I sat on my laptop for half hour, Jack came in to me and said I look waxy and ghoulish and that I wont be going school tomorrow....so thats me told by both mum and Jack now. But to be honest the way I feel I know I cant work. I am gutted.
I went to make a cake then had a lot of meat to cook and did the dinner. Thats the trouble with sundays - I am in the kitchen a while but it makes cooking for the rest of the week much lighter for me. Id rather cook a lot on a day I havent been working.
dinner was good and didnt hurt too much to eat, which I found strange. But then i realised the foods I had eaten were 'safe' foods.
I had a bath and a pamper then doing my diary, I am gonna do a few stretches now. My Jack is about to go and game with theo again as they really enjoyed it last night so god knows when hes coming to bed but I am gonna have myself a hot chocolate and play on my switch in bed
tomorrow
well I had it in my mind that I would be back tomorrow!!! sweet jesus! it is not fair!!
so I will have to ring the doctors tomorrow and ask very nicely for a sick note. I feel so guilty for doing that. Poor Jack and Julia. I feel like such a let down of a technician. But Jack says to not have those thoughts, that I am a good technician and I am having a rougher time than anyone at work.
I guess. I still cant help but wonder what people must think.
