Didn't sleep
woke up at 1am feeling like i was gonna be sick
i think i ached that much i just felt sick so i got up
and had a sickness tablet and cereals to take the taste away
i was back in bed for 2am
still didnt sleep great and had an awful dream about orphan children being squished under heavy machinery it was like a warehouse that too orphans to basically kill them, they fed them hay and just made them into a pulp, some believed they would get some went mad, i could fly (somehow XD) and was trying to find a way in to try and save some but couldnt get in anywhere
woke up after i watched just too much blood
my subconscious is a frightening thing considering i dont watch horror stuff
i felt so damn tired this morning
mentally and physically
but still i got on with my day
i sorted bits out in my room and it is looking tidier
i mean it was tidy it just had a lot of stuff on display
took posters down and new ones up
made my brother a bday card
drew out a canvas
did dancing til i was dripping in sweat
washed my car
sat with my ozwald
i also told mum and me and jack now its finally sunk in
i was struggling to find the right moment as i was nervous about telling her for some reason
i think cus it meant revealing how i really felt and meant i had to talk about my other self
she was dead happy for me and hugged me and everything
yeah she thinks someone might take care of me and ill be free from her hands XD
nah she was good and happy for me ^^
she seems to think jack sounds nice ><
just got mia to tell -____- yeah thats gonna be 50 questions right there and then XD
i put some music on my ipod ive been meaning to do for a while now
got too many dances i want to learn! thats my trouble now ><
gonna just do a bit dance rehearsal tonight then sit with oz
and hopefully, my god hopefully sleep
im getting so tired i just cant think
and i dont wanna look like death when i see jack tomorrow
tomorrow
going kitty cafe with jack ^^
then were gonna look at this game book he's got so i can help design him a character so i can draw it for him :)
suppose to be seeing mia but not heard from her
here is a face oil i brought for £7 from korea
i wasnt sure how id get on with a face oil but im hooked!
ive used it for a few days now and im so shocked at how well it absorbs and how soft my skin is the next day! i love it! and they do different ones this one is vitamin C for dry skin as my skin this time of year is dry. but ive got mum into it and shes ordered her own but anti wrinkle one which im gonna try just to see if it feels the same but its great stuff ^^ better than creams anyway
