Last night/this morning I woke up at 2am and thought
"im gonna be sick"
i got up and felt slightly out of it to say the least
i got downstairs and grabbed some breakfast biscuits and sat and ate them
that still didnt feel like enough somehow so i decided to make a hot chocolate as well
i took the hot milk out the microwave and quickly put the mug down
my vision was fading, my ears ringing and pulse thundering
i just thought 'need to get to the floor fast'
got knows how i actually got to the floor safely
put i laid there without my dressing gown luckily
i was cold but sweating, pulse thudding, and ears ringing
i laid there deep breathing til i felt well enough to stand
made the fastest hot chocolate ever and quickly sat down
and just made it as i could feel the need to faint coming on
i sat and drank the hot chocolate and went to bed when i felt safe to do so
i think it was too much medication and not enough food
this morning mum woke me at 8:20am holding tillie
"shes not well"
not what i wanted to wake up to
poor tillie
she was quiet, still, eyes sunken, fur felt horrible, she was off balance
how had she gone from being a bit quiet and tilted head last night to this!?
mum was upset, theyre her babies
so i rang up the vets for her and got tillie an emergency appointment
we got in for 10:15am
i told my brother, tillie is his favourite
and he said he wanted to go with mum, which was fair enough by me
they went and were a good hour
i did 40mins of dancing til i was a puddle, then had a shower
they came back
they said they had to pull up round the back of the vets, ring the vets to say their arrival, then someone collected tillie, she was examined and brought back to mum and my brother
they think THINK that she could ether have a ear infection or UTI
so she has: anti inflammatorys, antibiotics, something to help her stomach
3 medications once daily for 5 days!
she'll be smacked off her tits!
so i gave her her medication which she was very good about
later we put her outside on the grass with the other two
and literally you wouldnt know there was a problem
she was walking around normally, eating the grass, alert
i think she had us on this morning!
im glad shes like that and not on death's door
i hope she continues to do well
i worked on my jacket til lunch
then had lunch and fell asleep
a few nights of being up in the night does catch up on you
i just needed sleep, even now im tired
i got up and worked on my jacket and got it finished
im pleased with it, its so neat! I made it slightly bigger for me too so i can fit jumpers underneath it during the colder season
mum thinks it good
my brother says it looks like im gonna go sky diving XD
i cleared up and and had dinner
then i went for an evening walk as we didnt do one this morning
i went by myself round the woods it was nice but chilly i have to say!
tomorrow
i will do dance if dad is at work, yoga if he is at home
somehow yoga is more acceptable to him than dancing
then i will shower and get ready to go over to jack's
im staying there til monday
i said to mum if she wants me to come home to do tillie's medication then i will but she says i will only not be able to do it sunday and she will get my brother to help her
thats it really
