Evening~~
I couldnt sleep last night, so I was up til 2am...I was so done
My alarm went off at 8am as we both needed to get up and out for 9am
Jack went shopping with his younger sister he didnt get home til 1:30pm
I went for a 90min walk with mia....sweet jesus
And I dont think I spoke on the whole walk! She just spoke about her life and wedding stuff. She even wanted to walk to the next town so she could see if the pharmacy was doing booster jabs. Not once did she ask me "am I ok? do you mind me doing that? can you walk that far? do you have time?" it was a case of we are doing this end of.
I was dead when I got home. She did however get an appointment for an hour's time
so I thought it was best that I also arrange my booster. I have booked me and Jack in for weds morning
but I am not sure what I even got out of seeing mia. Like I said I never got chance to speak. She also said she hadnt brought me much for christmas as shes not really doing gifts this year as they need to save up for their wedding. I said to her "I wish I had known!! I would have quite happily have wrote christmas off this year!" But as she had sent me a txt last month saying her a rob were going christmas shopping in manchester I assumed everything was as normal...jeez
But anyway, she has her gift, ive seen her. Probably see her on her birthday. She said I can bring Jack too if he wants to come
So I got home and had a cup of tea then booked covid jabs
did some jacket design. Then mum came over for lunch and a chat
when she left Jack txt to say he was on the bus home
So he came in and he had kindly brought us both a doughnut. Mine was pretty plain just icing and no filling. His had apple sauce in the centre....thats disgusting. He said it was weird. I was having a war in my head about what I was eating but I was telling myself that Jack had brought it for me and it was an act of kindness I shouldnt turn away. I had done a big walk. So yeah the war was hard. i ate it but hours later - still hating myself for it.....
I went on the bed to rest for an hour and Jack played on his switch next to me
we got up and I ran a bath, Jack was with Oz in the living room. After he had a bath we had dinner. Hes now gone to play with theo online again. I dont mind as he said he would be off at 9:30pm to play pokemon in bed. I will take Oz home soon then maybe work on the numerous sewing project I have...I have 4 sewing projects to do...Or I might do digital drawing....
Jack has finished his christmas shopping now hes just got to wrap it all up.
I have taken A LOT of medication today as I had had enough of aching and feeling. Needed to be numb
tomorrow
not got anything on so I might get some arts and crafts done :)
wonder if I will sleep tonight
