evening
I attended school
I even slept! I got up for a wee but on the whole, I freakin slept!
I actually felt ok about school this morning too, wasnt filled with anxiety and feeling sick
so that was all a positive change!
I started to flag tho around 10am T^T I was so disappointed
I mean what had a expected really? id been away from school for 2 days not 2 weeks
I found my lesson boring and hard not to actually fall asleep in!!
I struggled with the rest of the day but we didnt have much on so I actually didnt do a lot really
However.....
several people brought in A LOT of baked goods. I mean homemade baked goods not just store brought crap. Oh my god there was soooooo much. And I was struggling for energy. I was thinking "we arent going to any school christmas dues, we havent gone out for takeaway/pudding in ages and arent going to any time soon. This will be my christmas food treat". I simply consumed XD after my lunch I had 2 biscuits, 2 cup cakes and a slab of brownie. I was on the floor in a ball with the hot bag on my stomach - in pain. My stomach hated me. I had to make a trip to the staffroom toilets....all day since then my stomach has hated me and made so much noise even when I simply drink
but what was really lovely, was that Julia had brought us both a christmas present - we had given her chocolates. She gave Jack cider, and me....a house plant!!! I bloody love it!!! Its leaves are so pretty. It doesnt flower it simply grows these 2 tone green leaves. It likes humid places so I have put it in the bathroom and it looks great I am in love ^^
We came home and mum was already over, had a brew with her. Oz pestered her for treats and fuss >.> bloody rabbit. But hes happy bun today and had a clean bum, hes been drinking his probiotic too so Im hoping we are making progress!!
I did my work out to just dance not that I could be bothered. Then had a bath. Then I put Jack's pizza in the oven which was almost double the size he usually has - it was reduced. I had a piece of gammon but that was it for my dinner and even then my stomach hated that!! so I skipped dinner really as I wasnt hungry, id eaten plenty today, knew if I shoved food down me that I would have awful tummy ache + be kept up all night with food thoughts. As it is now I just hate my body but I dont want to diet myself too badly and all that jazz. Jack, despite me saying "dont need to eat it all you can have some for lunch tomorrow cold" ate all the pizza....he only had a biscuit and a cake at school. So he hadnt had as much as me but I was still surprised at how he managed to eat it all.....
so basically we both consumed today!!!
dear god we ate!
so we are both full and are skipping the hot chocolate tonight and were off to go play pokemon in bed at its 8:20pm and we finished up with food at 8pm so yeah were just gonna play pokemon in bed.
tomorrow
last bloody day
thank you LORD
jesus it has been hard
we finish at 1pm tomorrow
its christmas jumper day tomorrow
I dont have a christmas jumper. so i am wearing a white dress with blue stars on with glitter tights. and maybe boots. I havent told jack, I just said I will stick joggers on as who cares XD
but after work we are popping to B&M for blankets for me to rip up to make a jacket and TK for a christmas candle. Then I am coming home and beginning my 2 week coma~~
