I achieved something
I only woke up once in the night!!!!
It is in an achievement~
I got up for acupuncture today
I asked him to work on two points that cause me A LOT of pain
I wince to touch them and I can't have anybody touch there
it's where shoulder and collar bone meet
so I asked him if he'd have ago
so he put a needle right next to where hurts telling me its an acupuncture point anyway
i asked "will it hurt?" cus ive never had a needle there
he simply replied "yes"
I laughed at his bluntness but to my surprise it didnt hurt
he told me he didnt want to put a needle in where it hurts because the skin is thin but he he would like to try somewhere else. I trust him
He puts a needle between my thumb and index finger the fleshy part there and thats a belter it really does make your hand spaz a split second. so those were in and ive had those before now the new ones were just right next to it and my left hand jutted 20cm away from me i had zero control over that action and i yelled out in surprised pain. the right had the same but didnt jut out the same distance luckily. He then pressed the points that hurts and no pain...
no pain...
how is that possible? I've had that pain for 5 years and to suddenly go is hard to get my head round
i asked "will it be that way when the needles are out?"
"yeah should be"
i could not move my hands at all not even a mil cus the slightest movement caused hurtful spasms so i had to keep deadly still for 30mins not easy but if it means i can ditch pain then i'll do it for sure
and just as he said when he uncomfortably took the needles out, the pain was still gone
i couldnt believe it
im so happy i truly am
from there i went home and despite mum being home within the hour i rang her up to say i had 1 pain less!!!! she was happy for me and glad to get some good news :)
I went and did some more work on my picture before CBT
CBT we worked on a sheet together
and talked about relapses
she showed me a chart of my progress and i was so surprised at how far id come
my depression and anxiety had decreased so much that it was almost touching "normal" levels!!!
she doesnt want to see me for 3 weeks now~ woo
I came home and had some lunch then grabbed Ozwald and went to Adam's house
Oz played round the downstairs as usual and was even licking adam's dad's hand!!
he's working his magic on him! he'll get him under the thumb like he has everyone else XD
just give him time ;)
I left there and came home with Oz and Oz only as I thought it was best to rest
so I got home and went for a 20min walk with mum
then got a lot done on my laptop I had been putting off to say the least
I havent done much else since really
I drew this last night
took 30mins
I was quite impressed to say that I havent drawn a tiger before
I showed it therapist and adam they were both amazed and adams dad was impressed ^^
it feels amazing not to have that pain
i feel my posture is better too
wish everything could be cured with a needle i have to say
tomorrow adam said he wanted to play on his xbox with me and go for cake
not a 100% ideal plan for me but he'd organized it for a change instead of me so im going with it.
i hope i sleep well again tonight!
