I got four hours sleep last night
I was up til midnight drawing/writing this
I decided to do what was in my head my busy head
and I did kinda enjoy it
it probably looks like the ramblings of a mad man tho XD
and I went to have a hot chocolate after to relax me
but I was still struggling to sleep, had a hay fever attack and was back in bed
for 3:45am -_____- I was shattered
Mum woke me at 8am now usually she cant even get past my door frame
without me sensing her presence and waking but she got all the way to me!!
she was next to me! gave me a heart attack
that never happens
she told me i looked so peaceful and didnt want to wake me
i was sleeping with a shirt adam gave to me yesterday ^^
I got up and got ready to go to karens
it was good to see her and she told me about her Edinborough trip and how much she enjoyed it
she told me how well she thought i was doing too
shes got a new car...a fiat 500 id kill for one of them!! lucky her, 18 plate too *drools*
I came away and had a shower when i got home
then I cleaned up, prepared my lunch which was noodles!!
i ate noodles and died of stomach pain
me and mum went to 3 shops and i felt exhausted
i came home and spent the next 3-4 hours curled up in bed
i felt terrible. i know the massage had just simply hit me quite hard is all
doesnt usually tho
I got up and had my dinner and cake afterwards and i havent died yet
i cut some fabric out ready to start sewing for mum's cushion
cutting stuff with a 60 degree angle has been a new one on me
now im unsure what to do
its 7:30pm
i havent done any exercise today
my body feels like a dead weight
ive been dosing all afternoon
i feel lonely
so all in all its setting up for quite a bad night...
i have a feeling its gonna suck big time
i dont like thinking negatively but i can kinda predict these things!
Helina has gotten married im guessing
the reception party started half hour ago
it feels that far removed from me that its like me trying to get happy and involved
in this so called 'royal wedding' coming up
i mean i hope it works out for her i guess.
still happy with the decision not to go
id probably say something id regret later on anyway
or knee him in the groin
ether works XD
tomorrow not sure what im gonna do
i should be cracking on with something productive
Oh I got my £2.50 book in the post today
its massive...
like huge
its like a harry potter book
im gonna be there for ever
i had no idea it was 915 pages 0.0
best be good!
its "i know this much is true" by Wally Lamb
