Evening
Keep thinking about Karen.
I went to bed by myself as Jack was gaming
But I got up. I decided I would pierce my ear in remembrance of Karen. I have had a self piercing kit thing for months now but just couldnt bring myself to pierce my ear again >< But last night I got the courage to do it. Thinking what ever I put in that hole will be special and make me think of her. It will be my final piercing. My last and 9th piercing.
Weirdly I didnt feel anything!! I could feel a slight throb when I got back into bed tho. It soon went and I soon fell asleep.
I woke up at 1:30am for a wee but got back off to sleep til 8:30am! Jack was awake and I expected him to go back to sleep but he got up. He said he was up til 2am. I didnt even hear him come to bed! I fell asleep that quickly under my weighted blanket. I have also had dreams the last 2 nights. something that had stopped the few months. I dream EVERY night without fail and theyre very vivid but they had stopped. Maybe that was because my sleep quality was bad? Maybe I was so drained? dont know. But last two nights ive had vivid dreams again which also helps keep me asleep
I told Jack about my ear. He was ok about it. I didnt tell him I did it for Karen and I want to have a special earring in it
We had Ozwald in and then we put him outside. I did a bit of sewing then mum came over at 11am for a brew it was good to see her. I didnt tell her I had pierced my ear.
she ranted off about living with two autistic men XD how hard it. How we do nothing as a family cus of dad and how shes trapped in her relationship
what do i say? I get told off for saying "you chose to marry him" XD so I dont say it anymore.
she reluctantly left at 12:15pm and Jack came down stairs to have lunch with me
I did a bit more sewing but it makes me tired and achy
I laid on the bed for an hour, had a brew and then did a bit more sewing whilst jack sat with Oz. But I dont feel like I have gotten that far with it all!! Its very slow but some of it is because I want to do a detailed jacket not a plain one.
we had dinner then I am just doing my diary in the lounge with Oz and Jack
I will go on just dance with my weights after this then have a bath
Jack will have the bath after me then hes going to go game late with theo again
he was going to have an evening with me but I told him to go make the most of having late nights during the holidays. We go back to work on tuesday after all!
so I am by myself again tonight. its fine I can cope
tomorrow
going food shopping so we have enough food til sunday then we will be back on our normal sunday shopping routine. Need to go doctors to drop a prescription in but thats it really rest of the day will hopefully be mine!
my brother had his covid booster yesterday and he feels rough today. Glad he got it done even tho he says its the last one hes getting done >.>
