God I hardly slept
I fell asleep really quite quickly last night
but woke up at 11:45pm to the sound of mum's car alarm going off :S
bit weird
then woke up at 12:30, 1:45, 2:30 and stayed awake til 5:30am
dont think i really slept that well from 5:30am
so I was tired when I woke up at 7:30
and I'll tell you what was keeping me up
thinking of jack! how frustrating is that!?
honestly what good does thinking about stuff do during the night -____-
did my head in
could not tune off
all sorts of questions were mulling through my mind
how long will it last? when I will tell people? will he regret it? how long before i get used to him?
just stuff which i guess boils down to insecurities on my part ><
so i was suppose to go over to tara's today for...
WAFFLE DAY!
a day we've wanted to do since before christmas
but because of one thing or another we've had to cancel it
but today it finally happened. when tara finally got round to texting me anyway
i went over around 11am
she had got Blue over - her family's staffie
never met him before
he's 9 years old and totally mentally
like if he was a human he'd be easily diagnosed with ADHD
he just mad and full of energy despite being on a 90min walk in the morning and tara telling me that this was him 'good' crazy
so we sat talking for a bit
she couldnt believe jack had asked me out
to be honest nether can i
we went to make the waffles
i had two
one with white chocolate + chocolate spread
the other white chocolate + peanut butter
first one was best
and i didnt go too hyper on sugar
then we attempted to play on her wii but blue kept getting in the way and you cant lock him out of rooms as he goes crazy
we sat in the living room with james and i had a real long play fight with blue
first with toys then just with my bare hands
i have quite a lot of red teeth marks on my hands XD doesnt hurt
and im not scared in the slightest of dogs
so yeah i was practically rolling on the floor with him and tara and james watching our fight, blue was growling so much XD but kept coming back for more!
they liked how i could play with him as they said some friends find him scary
then we walked him back to tara's mum's house
were i met her younger brother who i believe is 22
i could see the resemblance but they didnt look too much alike and he was pleasant
reminded me of my brother to be honest
and they get on well
so after we dropped blue off there we walked back to tara's and had the bunnies out
they covered me in fur -___-
we sat and talked and i finally told her about my split personality as i kept forgetting to tell her!
she was fine with it and didnt bother her
i dont know why last year i worried so much about my mental health and what others would think of me to be honest. everyone has been accepting of it
it hasnt scared anyone off anyway
then i went home at 5:15pm
got in and took my make up off and put stuff away and had dinner
jack text to ask about my day
i told him i ate my weight in waffles and had a fight with a staffie
he replied
"im reading that as: you went on a sugar high and attacked a dog"
i burst out laughing, the guy knows me XD
turns out he didnt sleep great ether cus he was too happy he says
i like how hes happy and im just nervous, scared and insecure
life is unfair >.>
not his fault or anything its just my mentalness
tonight im gonna do some yoga or dancing or something
shower and sit with Ozwald
might try the epliator tonight
i feel like having a go
dealing with the pain
tomorrow just gonna entertain myself really
got sorting of bedroom to do and creative stuff and my car wants a wash
here is the LAST Noragami manga i ordered
the last of a series
so thats another series of manga completed i collect
im gonna read em when i can~
