Today is my brothers birthday!!! yay yay he turns 22 today!! :D
I've put up with him 22 years. scary! XD
He took the 'join the dots naughty positions' book I had brought and wrapped for him to college. He opened it there and had a laugh with people. One of his class mates was completing one, went to the teacher saying "ive finished one" the teacher laughed and said "whos is that?" "oh its not mine" "course it isnt" my brother recorded it all XD im glad he found it amusing in his day.
I also gave him the two t-shirts i brought from manchester last year with mia and a scarf~
he liked his gifts :D mum made him some biscuits cus he prefers biscuits to cake DX
I hope he manages to celebrate his birthday
I think most he wants to do with us is a take away pizza on friday night
Man was I cold last night
I couldnt get to sleep once again. I was roasting as well
but I ended up cold and about 5 hours sleep
getting up at 7am to a freezing house was no something I enjoyed
I must have walked round the house tense and with a face on me XD
School I had a talk with the teacher about the child I provide care for
she wants the child to be more involved in the class which works for me
and I understand she still needs to be apart of her class but a lot of the time
i personally think she could be doing some more productive than on the carpet
with her class mates not understanding a thing whats being said
but its a fine line
but today we did some painting, another layer of her hot air balloon
english and maths she got it all done today
apparently she was tired yesterday afternoon! i had tired her out!!!
She's 6 she should have more energy than me XD
I hope I can get it all right. I just keep doing my best
Got home and mum had soup on for me ^^
which was nice of her
Then we both went outside to clean our cars
cus my god my car!!! It has not been done this year
so I hoovered, polished the inside then washed the outside it looks much better
and hopefully when new freshener comes it will smell better too
Then I went for a walk with mum
came in and did some cross stitching whilst watching Jon Richardson 'how to survive the end of the world' which I had missed last week.
Then I went upstairs and made a pair of mouse ears for my cosplay on thursday
I have it all ready now :)
Now im trying to do some stretches and dances before shower
then sit with tiffs
Im feeling really anxious today im not sure whats gone off
seems to get worse if i think about adam which just puts me into doubt
normally if you like someone you should want to see em and be happy if you think of them right?
but today ive felt nothing but anxiety about it all. The anxiety has affected my head also so tonight im gonna take sleeping tablets as i have a strong feeling i aint gonna sleep tonight with my head a mess.
hopefully it will all be ok tomorrow
hate anxiety but i dont let it mess my day up!
I could quite easily not the leave the house tomorrow but as much as id like to do that i know id really hate myself for giving in and not going out.
so sod the anxiety
Tomorrow I have school once again
and hopefully just to lunch time ^^
Then I think im seeing adam tomorrow at some point...? who knows!
Im gonna wear this new hair tie/scrunchie i have
it's based on Dedenne from Pokemon :D
I won it in a bid auction for £3.10 ^^ well happy
I havent worn it yet~
