Evening
to say I had my bed all to myself last night, I didnt sleep any better
it took me a while to get off to sleep cus it was weird not having Jack there, guess I have gotten used to having him there. When I did eventually sleep my mum had two night terrors so shes screaming her face off -_____- I got up at 12:30am for a wee. Then woke up at 3:30am for another wee! So annoying! I was aching and didnt hold out a lot of hope for being able to get off to sleep but I did and mum woke me up at 8:45am, I was having a dream about being in a castle with other girls, we were to be ether brides or food for vampires in the castle, i was determined to escape. Mum woke me before I could escape >.>
I showered the sheer amount of sweat off me from the night, then I got to work, started my next picture which is Mendeleev, I have been working on him most of the day and got the outline finished
He's gonna be holding in his hand 3 periodic table squares which will make the word 'teach' Jack thinks I have done a great job, and mum thinks so too she said it made a change for me to draw a guy. I always draw girls! this is true X3
At 11:30am I walked over to the bungalow to go and inspect my workmen workmanship
it was good to see both matt and the electrician there. Matt was doing an amazing job and I talked to him about radiators, toilet roll holders, mirrors, who is getting what, what i need to get. Mum says I am right project manager XD I need to get hold of a toilet roll holder and a mirror. I can have a mirror with built in lights! i mentioned a blind cus i know jack will want one but i dont. so he can source that if he wants one. im hoping he will just forget about it tho.
The electrician was doing well, he said he just needed to get the living room and kitchen done then he would have sorted out all the lighting. But he wont be back now til monday. But we have stuff up and running for now :)
my house is a TIP. it is a sodding mess. I tried not to look. tried not to let it get to me.
me and jack went for a walk after all that and i was struggling to breathe,, i couldnt take a full breath in for whatever reason. I was panting like a dog. I got back to mum's and she commented on my breathing and I told her I just cant breathe, she said that it could be anxiety and stress. I know I get like this at school so yeah it could be anxiety and stress.
we had lunch together then Jack left to be at the bungalow. I stayed here and worked on my picture. i asked jack to put my marie curie picture on the science what's app group and all the science staff loved my picture :D they said how talented i was ^^
Jack came over for food and stayed a bit just for a catch up and a cuddle then I let him go as i knew he had gaming to attend to as I had said to him he may as well game tonight as I am gonna stay here again tonight as I think the stress of seeing the house the way it is, isnt good for me right now. So just gonna have another night here. But we will be showering and eating here for the rest of the week. Mum wants to do this for us so we dont stress. or me stress
So he's gone to game and all i have is my drugs to get me through the evening. I just dont want to think or feel. I just want to sleep. need sleep
tomorrow
probably go down to B&Q with jack for a mirror. maybe go for a walk then keep working I guess. I havent got much else going off.
on the plus side we have had the tiles delivered, the shower, the units and taps. So stuff is starting to come in and matt can get on with stuff
