Evening
totally forgot to do my diary
only thought about 9:30pm and by which point I was in bed and couldnt care less!
so anyway we have broke up for christmas!!! woobloodywoo!!!
yesterday at school it did feel somewhat like a wasted day for all involved. I didnt do much
i simply attended and couldnt wait to finish
on our way home we popped into TK and I got a candle its not christmasy as there wasnt much to pick from christmas candle wise and the ones that were selling themselves as christmas were grossly scented. I got some body oil and body wash
We went to B&M bargains and it was busy in there so we were like ninjas and I got my blankets, its a baby pinkish colour so thats what I am going with this year! Not sure on the design yet of my jacket
We got home and I went to bed~ I was DONE
I got up and was with Oz and had a bath then did dinner then jack sod off to go game. Last one of the year. So I was by myself all evening
I cleaned the bathroom and wrote shopping lists and food menus and did 30mins of yoga. I had no energy but pushed through I guess
I was in bed playing on my switch. Jack usually finishes gaming for 10pm but didnt finish til 10:50pm...I didnt say anything as its school holidays and last one of the year
I slept through the night as I was exhausted
I woke up at 8:20am and I just felt knackered
my body screaming at me to return to bed
I left Jack in bed he woke up at 10am
I had been with Oz, had breakfast and cleaned Oz out
then I went to mum's at 11am for a brew til 12;10 came home for lunch, had a shower and went for a hair cut. I wasnt in the mood but I needed to go
Jack left the house before my shower he was off to see his family. But because of my hair cut he had to go alone. I am going over with him to see them on christmas eve.
I came home and I went to bed. I didnt fall asleep tho. So I simply rested in the warmth for an hour
I got up but my brain was still tired and fried. I still felt like I couldnt be creative so I decided to grab my bunny, it was 3pm by this point, and I wrapped all my presents! Done. We spent 3 hours doing that bugger of a task but its done now......Oz 'helped' I ended up bribing him with kibble as I was afraid I was gonna wrap him!
Jack came home after 6pm and we did dinner, he had brought treats back with him from his mums which is nice so we have home made scones for pudding!
hes having a shower now and I am just doing my diary
I almost put my tree up today but couldnt be bothered when I thought more about it
people at work said to put it up otherwise its just depressing but I feel so detached from christmas this year. I just cant seem to find any joy in it
I just keep thinking about karen....how theyre getting her ready to go home and die.
and it all feels so pointless. so materialistic
my greatest joy this holiday is not going to work. but I dont want to spend my entire holiday simply recovering to go back and work I want to do things I enjoy so I can feel some sort of joy and happiness.
Im off now til 4th january I think it is
tomorrow
its usually our weekly food shop, however because next sunday is boxing day and not even sure shops are open then, we are going to do another shop on wednesday with my mum. so tomorrow's shop is a 'mini' shop to tide us over til wednesday. so that shouldnt be too bad.
still have soup to make, meat to cook and biscuits to bake
I might do some drawing or maybe sewing. or even design my jacket~
