The bottom padded sheet on my bed tore yesterday
its 2" thick and filled with goose feather
it helps a lot
and now it has a 10cm tear in it, just from age...
so we took it off my bed as it was getting stabbed by feather XD
so last night was my first night without it
my god what a difference that topper makes!
i kept losing circulation so i had to keep tossing and turning :/
i didnt sleep very well
this morning me and mum went and did a few errands
which made life feel a little bit normal
we went got medication and post office
just everywhere takes much longer as theres skeleton staff and sometimes only letting 1 - 2 people in a store at a time
not that we are short for time right now!
i got back and we went for a walk
then i had a shower
i could not be arsed to dance or do yoga!
i had lunch and tried to sleep on my bed but it found it hard to get comfy
i did drop off for an hour
i could have started my jacket but i really wasnt feeling it to be honest
like i didnt have the right mindset to do it
instead i did about 40mins dance practice in my room
got really hot, did my physio exercises
had a brew with Oz and i was still sweating
so i went for my second shower of the day and a cold shower at that
i could feel the water was cold against my hot face
god knows why i was so damn hot
afterwards i sat and worked on the snorlax cross stitch
had dinner
my dad is repainting the spare room tomorrow
another reason why i was staying over at jacks tomorrow!
i can not cope with my dad doing any form of DIY
he stresses me out and it has lead to panic attacks in the past
he gets so stressed and yells a lot and swears a lot
there is like a cloud over the house when he does any DIY
now usually in the past i go out for the day somewhere
be that a friends house, or just to the shops!
but with the current situation i cant do those things
so jack said i could stay over
great
but i knew my dad cant help himself everything has to be done NOW
so i said to mum "he will be starting this at 7am you know"
she said "no im gonna take him out with me to go fetch some bread and milk"
so i kinda thought 'ok good ill have time to dance and move my art supplies from the spare room'
but as it goes he announced he will not be fetching food and will be making a prompt start...
and i thought to myself "he will be clearing the room tonight not the morning"
i go upstairs and see areas masking taped already....
so i txted jack "i know you have online dungeons and dragons tonight but please can i stay over tonight?!" he said i could but that he couldnt skip out on gaming - which i didnt want or expect him to. So I will be going over there shortly
i started moving MY stuff out the spare room into my room as dad is never careful with anything and i didnt want him touching my stuff he'd only damage it and show no remorse.
as i started he came upstairs, started taking down curtains and other stuff
mum had a go saying "why you doing this now!?"
i knew it, just knew it.
everything has to be done yesterday with him
its only a tiny bloody room as well!
so i currently have my stuff and a load of other stuff in my bedroom
i can not move!
im stressed and have a headache
i could feel my blood pressure rising as he was getting involved
thank god im out the way
but mum says she will have my room back to normal for when i come home
which i think will be monday
he will be finished tomorrow but i want some time away from these 4 walls
im taking my laptop and graphics tablet and switch to play on so it should be something to do
as i have tonight to entertain myself as jack has D&D online - as they cant play in person right now
and sunday night is his gaming night
so two night i need to entertain myself which is fine it doesnt bother me
its nice were so at ease and dont have to be joined at the hip
not sure what we will do over the weekend
very little we can do these days :/
he says hes brought plenty of treats to keep me happy ^^
oh and i ordered a new topper for my bed
but it wont be here for a few days
we decided to put my old one for now just so i can actually sleep
just might get stabbed XD
my nails this week
