Even after being reunited with my own bed last night
i still didnt sleep well >.>
my parents came home at 11am i was happy to see mum
before they came home i had a quick tidy of the house
Then I have been sewing and working on lynn's present
which i can say is finished!
Im pleased with it, its stitched by using 'free machine embroidery' technique
to those who has no clue what it means
its basically the needle in the sewing machine becomes like a pen
you move the fabric around as if it was a sheet of paper whilst it sews
creating random stitched lines, its a little tricky but once your in the flow its fine
i framed it too with a frame i got from £1 store
im pleased with it~ mum said it was really good ^^
Then i was watching tutorials on youtube of stuff to make
i have plans on things i wish to make
i saw these cute dungarees and i doodled a quick idea and decided thats what
im gonna make! so ive put a bid on these black shorts i need on ebay hopefully i will win!
Then i started doing the pikachu sock plushie for tara's xmas present
but i has had enough of sewing so i quit and read
mia rang to say her friend gave her pokemon heartgold - a game shes been meaning to buy
so i was happy for her. i have pokemon soulsilver. we can now start them again together!
be geeks again and play retro pokemon games
as kids we would just sit in her living room playing pokemon on gameboys then DS
she wants a charmander and eevee so i gotta get them ready XD ditto breeding!
My depression has been shocking lately
i feel cracks on the surface and soon im gonna crumble
im not going to doctors til 22nd tho
i just wanna sleep constantly, i cant be arsed with life, i dont wanna interact with people, i dont want to eat and when i do i get picked on by my head telling me how fat i am and how much weight im putting on, and i keep feeling like something bad is coming. even if a family member is late home my mind goes straight to the worse case scenario like theyve had an accident and died
i dont know how much more i can take
i need help
tomorrow im going to college at 11am to meet one to one with my teacher
whilst she records me asking me questions
so not looking forward to it, i could really do with out it -___-
