Last night I took my brother to a party at 7:45pm
I said Id pick him up so I waited and waited for him to text or ring
he didnt
got to 12:30am and I heard someone dropping him off
I was so tired and dead but relieved that I hadnt got to go out the house
so I drifted off to sleep
didnt sleep great and woke up at 8am
I got in the shower and got ready to see mia for her 27th birthday
i made the effort and put a bit of make up on
I saw her at 10am
i was so tired tho and these antidepressants arent helping with how im feeling
we sat and had a brew and rob made her breakfast so i sat with them whilst they ate that
then we went through to the living room were she opened all her gifts
its like watching a child each year XD makes me laugh
she loved my presents which i was happy about
i got her the sakura figure and drew her a picture
she got some lovely things
i stayed til 12 as she wanted to pop out before family came over
she told me i can go over to join family and friends on friday
and then she said shes having a new years eve party about 5mins from her at a friends house
and that i could come if i wanted to
i feel i have to go but i will see
parties arent my thing but if you always turn it down you never get invited again so yeah
i will try show my face
i will go on friday for sure
i came home and had some lunch then went to bed
i was so mentally and physically exhausted
when i got up i realised i was home alone so with little motivation i got up
and blasted my music out and danced for 35mins
i was rather hot and sweaty afterwards
it felt good to try tho
i did a little bit of drawing
helped mum with the dinner which was amazing it was pasta
and we had left over sponge and custard it was effing brilliant loved it
only got a bit of stomach ache too
then i sat in a ball and read to pass the stomach ache
then did 30mins of yoga
just so tired and the days and evenings feel long just cus im knackered
and cant be bothered to do anything i dont have the focus or energy
but i keep trying to do bits
tomorrow i have no plans
so god knows how i will pass the day
just spend it in bed hopefully XD
