Evening~~
Yesterday Jack came over to see me
it motivated me actually as my god i was rough in the morning
but i did some yoga a lil dancing before he came over
we went for a walk which was nice
then picked up some food from pets at home for ozwald
i came home and my parents had come back
and i dont know but i just felt i had to get away
the night before they'd had an argument and my parents rarely argue
i was alone with them as my brother was at a halloween party
so i had to sit quietly whilst that went off
bottom line is, my dad is an awful venomous person
listening to the way he spoke to my mum was awful
and it made me upset
upset for her but also felt upset with thoughts
thoughts such as "what if jack ever spoke to me like that?"
yeah i wasnt good, i couldnt sleep and when i did it was full of nightmares
i tend to have nightmares when im stressed
so im not surprised i was rough when i got up at 8:40am
i asked jack if i could break out and make a run for it over to his house
he said it was fine, even if it was his gaming night
so i got my stuff and left ASAP
i felt bad for Oz as id only seen him once but i needed out
and i felt sick with anxiety for a few hours
simply cus i knew it was school the next day
i got to his and met the new plushie!!!!!
he chose the mini pumpkin :3
its very sweet and i will show a picture
ive named her Luna
we watched 5/6 of digimon
my god its a dark series
wonder how it will end :3
then we made dinner we made a pasta dinner
then it was about time for him to start gaming with his team
so that left me to just sit by myself working on my wolf
it was nice to just do that
i came downstairs to jack when id finished for the night at 9:30pm
he was gaming still and would be til 10pm
i got ready for bed
i was drugged up and warm, i wasnt going anywhere
he said he knows when im asleep as i twitch so he decided to finish at 10:30pm
watching him play my god it looks complicated but also boring
but he says he couldnt spend hours working on a piece of art
its good i think we have such different hobbies as it gives us space
and theres no competition with it
it was nice to have him to wake up to on the first day back
as i didnt feel too bad having him there
he made it bearable actually and he said the same about me
work was alright i managed
i felt a bit weak and wobbly at times but i kept trying to change what task i was doing
like what the specialist said
we came across a few mouldy things that were so grim
i didnt mess up
tomorrow will be full on tho and i hope i get it right
i have a lot of chemicals to make up and stuff to get right
i rested when i got in cus it was all i could do
then i finished my wolf!! its done!!! im gonna take it into school tomorrow
to show art teachers and to maybe scan it and get the JPEG
think im pleased with it
it challenegd me to new technique anyway
tonight i might do some stretches and then my nails
im so god damn tired tho
and its the first day back...
first day back of a 7 week term then i think its christmas....
