Evening
I slept well ^^
I felt ok about school, just tired but I managed 15mins of yoga before school~
School I was on better form than yesterday~
I almost got too carried away with my work and missed my council meeting which I felt was a total waste of time. She didnt really give me anything. Other than saying "im not a professional but sounds like you have an eating disorder" "you need to see more value in what you do each day, you do a lot more than other people who dont have your issues or anxiety" tis true. I thought I need to make note of what I do achieve in my days, no matter how small. I set myself goals but I dont look at any extra stuff or stuff I do instead.
However I am not returning to counselling as I dont feel like I am getting anything from it
I got a lot done at work today, I mean there was a lot of practicals none of them big but just loads of little ones which ate up my day and I wasnt able to do any drawing!
I came home and had lunch with mum and Oz but Oz was playing up, almost showing off in front of mum so I booted him outside >.>
we went to TK MAXX and we literally went there and home
I got a pair of joggers, sun glasses for me and Jack, candle and some soap so nothing much or special.
Mum came home with me and we opened up my Boohoo order and she liked all my stuff and I was pleased with them, just none I can wear right now as theyre thick joggers and jumpers!
she stayed for a cup or tea and I had fruit loaf too~
I couldnt wait for her to go tho as I was so damn tired
as soon as she left I went to bed but then Jack came through the door he said he saw mum, I dont get a break. I wasnt gonna grace him with my presence and conked out whilst he showered
I had a bath when I got up, which was when Jack finished showering
we had dinner
it was just so hot today it reached 29c its gonna go past 30c at the weekend T^T god help us
Jack went to clear up and Mia randomly rang me for 10mins then Jack was already gaming by this point. I sat on my laptop with the means to draw but I wasnt in the mood and it was a nice evening. I had sacked off exercise as my body feels heavy and achy like its full of fibromylgia-if thats possible. So I decided to scoop my bunny, get in my car (which was luckily in the shade by this point!) and drive to mums. I usually put Oz in his carrying case but it stresses him out so much even tho hes in it less than 5mins! So I thought I would sit him on my knee, no main roads and a dead time of day. He was such a good boy and clung to me. I drove like an old woman XD
We got to mums and I sat out with her and dad we watched Oz love life and run round the garden and the girls eat the grass, I had to cut truffs claws which she was not having. But Oz was so damn happy. Its so warm for him to come inside at night so I thought this would make his friday night ^^
I put him on my lap and we came home, Jack still doesnt know we had even gone out!
Now its 9:40pm and Jack should hopefully be finished around 10pm as I am shattered!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tomorrow is saturday!
and thank god that we dont need to get up at 6am ^^
we said we would have a bit of a 'date' as we dont go anywhere - thanks to corona but I need to go places as its not helping my anxiety for when i do need to go places and I dont want to fear getting anxiety, I wont let myself get that bad otherwise thats when you become a recluse! Also I want to do something fun with my Jack ^^ so we are going into a local town, where Harvey lives, and we are going for a walk in the park, charity shops maybe (if theyre not busy) and going for ICE CREAM!!! can not bloody wait. it has literally kept me going all week!!!!!
then we will come home for lunch and chores then die as it will be like 30c......
so hobbies after that!
heres how far I am with my picture, almost done the shading I guess
