I slept normally!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
first time in absolutely weeks!
I fell asleep around 10:30pm and woke up at 7am
so not bad at all~
would have been a perfect morning to run it truly would have been
but my joints are still hurting, im hurting if im honest
just my body aches, its being thrashed too much
so i said i'd dance, think mum was happy i wasnt running
so i danced for 30 mins which was good as i practised more Yosakoi
but without the Naruko as my brother was home
can be annoying XD
From there I showered and did the sewing I wanted to get done
cut out my border but didnt sew any of it as adam turned up from work
of course instantly theres an atmosphere
mum was right in a mood and it makes me in mood
so i a bit off with adam i literally cant help but push him away
it must be hard
i was bored and fed up
so in the end i took us to a park to walk round
me as usual doing the taking
walk was alright i was quiet, deciding id let him do the talking for a change
he tried i guess but he's just dull
we went to his house and his parents were both off work
so i saw them
and it was the first time ive seen his mum in almost 3 weeks
she said she'd missed me
his dad challenged me every given moment
so its me him batting it off whilst adam and his mum just laugh
it passed time, guess i didnt mind it even tho i am the court jester in a way
feel i just go up to entertain him and his family
i came home for yoga
all id done at adams was sit and talk to him and his family
so i was glad to come away but didnt know if mum was still in a mood
she had chilled out a bit
adam even asked if something was wrong between me and mum and said
he could feel there was an atmosphere and he has never said that before
perhaps he can feel my mum doesnt want him over
dont why mum is being hard work with it all
adds to my confusion
i know my parents dont think highly of my choice of relationship
but what can i do right now
makes everything harder
we went yoga
karen had a week off last week today was her first day back
jesus it was mental it seriously was
shes crazy
my body hurt, shook, and aches and is tight
positions i dont usually have an issue with have been getting harder lately
and its due to running
so i talked about it and im gonna give running up
its doing more damage than good it truly is
its making everything hurt
and aggravating my hyper mobility syndrome
its a crushing blow but ive got accept it isnt right for my body
ive only got one body and ive got to listen to it.
i dance and do yoga so i'll go back to how it was
sad isnt it when i was doing so well
im planning on ringing up the chiropractic clinic my parents go to for a free consultation to see if they can help my joints of its my hyper mobility getting worse and theres nothing that can be done
got this in the post a lip balm its really good stuff
can see why its usually £10 but i won it due to no one bidding
so it was mine for £3
doing nails tonight
tomorrow city centre with mum!
