Evening
I couldnt be arsed to do my diary last night to be honest
I was overwhelmed with how much stuff I still had left to do and didnt want to waste my sunday doing what I hadnt got done on the saturday! But Jack pulled me away from my desk and made me wind down for the evening as I would have pushed myself and kept going.
So yesterday, I cleaned Ozwald out and went to see my mum and brother. Mum ranted off about how much of a selfish insensitive arsehole dad had been on her birthday. But the rant wasnt that bad....turns out my brother had brunt of it on friday -____- that figures. But I could tell she was hurting. I felt so mad. I was hoping I didnt bump into dad as I think I would have laced into him and at the end of the day its none of my business
I came home and had a quick lunch with Jack, felt like death and went to bed. Jack's step dad turned up with his younger sister. I stayed in bed for a bit but then got up as I didnt want to be rude but also knew I didnt have energy for the whole of their stay round here.
James and Jack shared some male bonding time over the radiators. They shoving hosepipes up it and everything. Black sludge and yeah proper manly stuff. I was talking with his younger sister.
Then when they left my brother came over 10mins later! and he stayed for a bit which was nice as he doesnt come over that often. He stayed and talked and had changed my laptop battery and assessed it to see if it all works ok ^^ he also put a new screen protector on Jacks new phone.
He left and I got straight on with dinner which was good. Then I went on just dance and only managed 3 dances and was left panting like a dog, on the inhaler and in pain. It felt so unfair. I hated it so much.
this morning we got up and went food shopping which was ok apart from struggling to walk round the damn store. I mean for the love of god when is this going to end!? its going on and on and its not fair. I was hurting and exhausted. Whats up with me!!!!?
came home and did the soup, cooked my meat for breakfasts, made biscuits, prepped the evening dinners fish. Then had porridge for lunch and then I went to bed for an hour
I got up and it was sunny and I really wanted to go a walk. I havent been for a walk with my jack for 2 weekends now simply cus I cant walk....its so sad
He did his chores and I got on with the science work I didnt finish on saturday. but I still have more to do however I was not prepared to spend my whole weekend doing it >.> so then I started working on some art work for jack. He says he would like a personalised phone case for his new phone.
so i made a start, he hasnt seen it. and its not the pokemon he's asked for.....but when I told him I havent gone with the pokemon he wanted he said he trusted me.
I managed to do 10mins straight of arm weights and then I did some length strengthening after dinner I had a bath and got ready for school. Of course Oz has been fussed as he was inside 5 and a half hours today he is very spoilt and happy bun.
tomorrow
my Jack has his interview! so hes coming school with me to push his lessons out on trolleys then he is walking to the school. I am hoping hes back for lunch time. I wish him luck. I am massively stressed out about it as I can barely walk or stand for long and I have got to run 6 labs without him. i hope the teachers dont stress me out. He says hes going to email them all and say hes out so to keep demands to a minimum XD
My mum has txted me this evening saying shes had it out with dad, theyre not talking and its all crap. I truly feel for her and I hope shes ok. Its not nice arguing but I am also glad she has told him how skank he has been to her otherwise he would have got away with it and never known what a dick he was. or is in many cases. I just hope shes ok. My poor mummy. I have let my brother know as hes at his girlfriends house and has to go home to a house with atmosphere....
