Did not sleep
like that was a BAD night
I was in bed for 9:30pm after watching the first episode of tenchi muyo, showing it to Jack I havent seen it since I was like 14/15. Tsubasa, like I thought when I saw the first 3 episodes when I was in my teens, is very slow and dull. But I said I will watch it
I couldnt switch off, the more I thought about school the more anxious I felt, I decided to get up at 11pm for pain killers, took too many on an empty stomach and felt sick. Really sick and i was back in bed by this point trying desperately to get some sleep before school! Then I started having sweats so I got up to open the windows at midnight and just decided to get up in general til 1:30am.......I went to bed but every time I dropped off I immediately had an nightmare or saw something disturbing. After the 3rd time of it happening I got up and went on my laptop. As it goes I was able to find myself a new hoodie finally and for only £6! I also managed to get some christmas presents! I came to bed at 3:45am but took me a while to sleep. I would have liked some more pain killers but knew I would probably have been sick. I was hungry despite having a cookie and apple. So I just laid there thinking "if I dont actually sleep then fine"
I did get off to sleep and woke 3 mins before the alarm so I think I got just under two hour......
Jack on the other hand slept really well again! I am so pleased. He was not pleased I had not woke him.
He is fed up of me doing things myself and suffering alone. So I have promised to make more of an effort to wake him to get up together.
we got ready for school not that I bloody wanted to go. I felt like death but hey I got on with it
I was even polite to everyone all day
not grouchy
got all my work done
no one would have known I had been overdosing and had under two hours sleep
We picked Oz up on the way home mum said she had told him off a few times today for plant chewing and such. I said I would see her tomorrow
we had tea and fruit loaf when we got home and did dinner which was good and filling even if it was 80% vegetables
I went on my laptop for a bit and then did 10-15mins exercise as I didnt want to burn myself out, had a bath now just doing my diary with my lad. I have made him a 'warren' with his tubes, the sofa and my dressing gown and he is loving it X3
tomorrow
is school and I have 1 practical and its very easy to get ready just a bit messy to clean up. Cant have it all ways I guess XD I would like to do some art as well if I can
please god let me sleep peacefully and through the night tonight
