I could not get up this morning
I hadnt slept well
for one my brother turned his TV on at 1am and it was very loud
and that woke me up
but im so tired and drained
I got up and got ready some how!
I arrived at school to find out that there was staff off poorly, staff on training, visitors to attend to, a class trip out to tesco
all in all they were short staffed
i was asked by 3 members of staff if i could stay the whole day ><
I was really looking forward to going out with mum this afternoon
but what can you do
so i txted mum to say i was staying
My morning consisted of tea and toast
then suddenly another TA which i have tea and toast with came to me and said
in 10 mins she me and the child in my care along with the child she cares for
are going for a trip to tesco
so that was all spur of the moment
The TA drove us there in her car
we picked a few bits
got back and made 'pizza' in the staff room it was nice actually
Then break time
After break I did a game with the child
then we had some p.e. which is basically getting the kids moving round nothing sporty
lunch came and mum picked me up and brought me home ^^
I came back just as the lunch whistle blew so i was just in time!
After lunch I went outside with the child for a lil while
we came in and went round the school for a while and i did some role play with her
we did some painting together
then it was 1 hour of class play time so i encouraged her to play with her class friends
which she did luckily so i could do odd jobs
towards the end of the day a TA called me over to talk to me
she ended up keeping me til almost 4pm!
we talked about how I can help the child and the paperwork they'd like me to do about her
i was so happy as no one has talked to me on how i can help her
so i went through her school books and talked about all sorts
i suppose ive had this week to get settled in with her so as of next week
i will be doing proper TA work with her basically
it feels more professional and what ive trained to do
i am looking forward to it!!
came home and went out to the doctors which was a waste of time
then mum talked to me about adam
i got upset just because im struggling with feeling or should i say lack of
im not sure how i feel about anything and i have zero confidence to even start a relationship
mum seemed to encourage me into having a relationship with adam
but of course only if i wanted to but i think she was telling me that it was ok and not to worry what she thought about it all. but i cant let go and enjoy and trust. i just have walls round me i cant seem to take down. im so unsure of everything. but mum just said take it one day at a time and just enjoy each others company and if something comes of it then it will just happen if not then we will stay friends.
im just gonna take one day at a time
did make me a lil upset. which makes me feel even more immature
i asked her why she thought i had autistic traits
she told me that i always have to tidy my room before i sleep, everything has it's place, i like things to be right, things done a certain way. i said to her "if you base it off that then everyone's on the spectrum cus everyone has certain ways of doing things and getting things how you like em"
sure of that
im not autistic ><
Tomorrow I think I seeing adam
we're going to a little town where my college used to be
going cafe and charity shops are :D
Here is something i won on ebay from japan for £2.80
it flashes pokemon and its solar powered!!!
never seen a solar powered keychain before
