I didn't sleep til gone 2am
had stomach ache and hay fever and i was frozen
mum woke me at 7:30am
I got ready for my day~
I went to my psychology appt
which only wound me up big time
he did not want to bait the beast i was close to biting his head off
he said at the end he was pushing me tho
we talked about how im confused on how to be an adult and that having my illness
has not helped that, as everyone had their transition into adult hood whereas i was practically
in a coma in my bed. I missed out
and whilst I could easily blame my illness for this, that wouldnt be right as we discovered that my home life/situation isnt doing me any favours
its lovely to be helped so much at home and I am truly grateful for how much my parents do but they are wrapping me up in cotton wool too much theyre not giving me any responsibilities and thats what i need if i am to take baby steps into my adult life. So i told mum about it, i know she will find it hardest to 'let go' but fact of the matter is, the way things are, its just not helping.
I came away quite full of aggression and frustration
but I was soon able to get rid of it luckily
me and mum set off for derby
think we were in derby for 11:30am
we looked round a few stores on the market
i was able to get some fabric i needed and the nail varnish i needed too
we went for lunch which was soup! and half a small cob!
we walked round shops and I picked up new pajamas!!!! finally :D
been searching for weeks for them so I got a long sleeve pair and a tshirt pair
no shorts or vests for me~
I got some joggers with zip pockets so my ipod will be safe for when i start joining mum when she goes for her saturday park runs, im hoping next weekend I can start that!
I also got a new hoodie/jacket!!! I have missed one I chucked out a few weeks ago, and ive been using another one that has had its day so i feel scruffy in it. It was £16 but mummy kindly brought me that and my pajamas. Its deep turquoise with black writing on the back and black paint splats on the sleeves. Its cool and a bit different for me as its not cutesy
I dont always wanna wear cute stuff sometimes i want cool stuff
never sexy stuff tho XD
we were home for 4pm
we'd both had enough but enjoyed our day
i for one ran up to the toilet as soon as i walked through the door
as i had rather stupidly had half a cob and half a cake today!
never again but my god i enjoyed them i had forgotten how good cake was
but the after math probably wasnt worth it
I havent done a great deal since then really as its only been 3 hours
i did do some cross stitch and i havent done that in like 2 months
just havent wanted to but reading and playing on my DS isnt cutting it for me right now
Ive had Oz inside because for the last 3 days he has sulked
and i have given him attention im always diligent with that
but he sulks in his cage, i boot him outside and he takes himself home within minutes
dont know whats up with him! i think its cus hes in his rabbit teenage years XD
miserable bunny
but still felt the need to push my bin over
twice
Im hoping i sleep tonight
mum has put the heating on so i wont freeze tonight
stomach hurts cus i ate such sinful food today but hay fever has calmed down
as when i came back from the city - where i can breathe - it hit with a vengeance!
we shall see
gonna paint my nails tonight
tomorrow im wondering what to do really as i am tempted to go into the city (again) dressed in full cosplay just for the fun of it
whether or not i can be arsed will be another thing entirely usually sleep and or hay fever will make the decision for me. Tomorrow is also Karen's birthday! I did a mix media birthday card for her
designed by yours truly of course
