Evening
I slept well but my mum didn't, she keeps thinking about Molly....
So today work started alright and I was getting through my jobs even if I was a bit scatter brained and jumping from one thing to another. I also decided that I wanted a sugar binge today so I ate a lot of biscuits.....
I was ready for lunch but upon sitting down with my lunch I had checked my phone to find a 27 second video from mum. My stomach flipped when I saw it. It was of Molly heaving. We've had this once before with our pig Lily. And she died a long death and was doing these heaving things all through the night and in the morning we put her to sleep as she was not well.
mum left me message
"Molly is doing these heaving actions, ring me when you can"
Piggies dont have the reflux muscle to cant be sick so its odd to see them heave.
she has lost even more weight and is now 827g compared to a week ago of over 1100g
So I put my lunch down and rang mum - knowing really, what had to be done
I was planning on having 'the talk' with mum tonight but it seems Molly has gotten worse quicker than I thought.
Mum was obviously upset she loves that pig. We agreed that the kindest thing was to have Molly put to sleep. Mum said Molly's eye had begun to water and she just looks tired and fed up. Shes lost the sparkle in her eye. I offered to ring the vets up on mum's behalf. She was grateful of that as she said she thinks she will just break down on the phone
so I rang the vets - arranging for a death. I hate it
I got off the phone and bravely rang my mum
"they've had a cancelation so can you be down in half an hour?"
so sudden but I guess it gets molly out of pain and mum is just waiting for it all day
I couldnt escape work or even get the vets in half an hour so mum had to go alone. I wish I could have been there to support her....
I cried for 10mins after that phone call to mum. Its not nice arranging a death, knowing im losing a pig and not being able to see her one last time. And also upsetting my mum and knowing the heart ache she has to go through. She really loves molly. I know you shouldnt have favourites but molly certainly was my mums.
She sent me a txt later saying it was done and dad had come home to bury her in the garden.
It was a relief in a way as it wasnt nice seeing her in such a way and clearly the antibiotics werent doing a damn thing which I knew they wouldnt. I think she was just riddled with cancer.
I rang mum again and asked if she was ok and the she said she was. It was the same vet that saw her on Tuesday and she didnt faff with Molly, she just took her and did the deed. The vet said molly went quickly. She mustnt have had much strength left I am guessing
I finished work and we left 5 mins home I had got a bad headache and sore eyes, I had worked hard
Mum came over with Tilly and Truffle. Dont think its hit tilly whats happened yet. Tilly was always with mummy mole. But I had a fuss of them and put them in my garden. Jack sat and had a cup of tea with us and then went outside to garden with Oz
Mum is ok and says she knows she made the right decision and that Molly had a great life, we rehomed her after all. Think she lived til ether 4/5 years old we will never know.
Mum went home and we had dinner, then I laid on my bed exhausted
did 10mins of exercise which was all I could managed, a bath then just with Ozwald
tomorrow is school and its mental health awareness day so its wear something yellow. Im using it as a non-uniform day so yellow tshirt and leggings. Jack and Julia are going in full uniform the suckers
I hope I sleep and I hope the girls and mum sleeps
Molly, we had her for just over 2 years. On tuesday we had tilly and truffle for 2 years and Molly died this Thursday so she has raised them for exactly 2 years. She did her motherly duty of raising those two sows. She was such a loving motherly pig and so gentle but protective - she would never let Oz near her babies! Even tho he is anything but threatening XD we have had some good memories with Molly and I glad she got to have a good life with us and mum. We rescued her at about a year old and she had been starved and forgotten by someone with mental health problems. Mum soon fattened her up and got her trusting people. I hope she is at peace
