Nya~
I did not sleep well -____- I was restless I think
despite going for an evening walk with Jack and having a nice bath, i was just restless. I wasn't even thinking about my covid jab but maybe that was what was doing it?
Oh yeah i was really annoyed yesterday. I went to wash my hair and when I looked at my sudsy hands from shampooing my hair - the suds were purple!!!! T^T the hair dye is once again leaving my hair >.> it is true then it seems that ginger hair is hard to dye. So weird. So I have given up I think cus yeah it just keeps washing out. My brother said I need to bleach my hair but I do not want to do that. I love my hair too much to damage it like that. It was tough enough to put permanent in my hair!
So this morning we could already tell it was gonna be warm....and yes it reached 32c. It was predicted 27c. We went off to shopping and found a shaded spot which was far from the shops doors but meant the car was in the shade. We left it there and walked over to the other shops as we usually drive but there is no shade where the other shops are. I was anxious going round the shops for some reason. I blame it on lack of sleep.
we got home and had a cup of tea and then did my soup, had lunch then my parents came over and Jack and dad did my craft desk! it is in now!! the glue is drying and I need to stick the sides on to neaten it up. But looks amazing and doesnt look like a kitchen side. It was time for our covid jab at 3:15pm. Of course i was anxious. we got there to find the carpark dead. we walked up to the doors and cleaner said "you should have had a txt from NHS saying that the vaccines had been distributed else where and the next batch were due in a 4pm" we could ether come back later and tell them whats happened and still get a jab or drive across town to an open clinic today.
we came home after that anti-climax. What a waste of life as it then meant we had a pointless half hour to kill. Not to mention it was roasting. it was 32c by this point.
we went back out and the carpark was busy. there was a que of people and we had got there at 3:50pm to beat the que! so much for that! saw my brother down there as his appointment was at 4:15pm. he was in the line behind us but I went to go talk to him.
we eventually got called through after waiting 25mins....and I can tell you the place didnt have AC....it was rather sweat inducing. So I was getting rather worked up at this point. Like i do if I kept waiting for a blood test, my anxiety spikes. And it had had time to spike. Jack was keeping me going but every member of staff I met was like "are you ok?" I think they could see the fear written all over my face. Our turn came round and we sat at the mini tables they had set up but a nurse came over to me and said "I think she would benefit being in her own booth" so they took me to this very enclosed space like very small, it was sat in another seat. A part of my brain was trying to say
"dont have it sitting up, you will faint!"
it was hot in there and I was feeling sick. So after all the questions the lady got the nurse over again, not sure why, think there was something she wasnt happy with and I said to the nurse - after she had asked me questions - "I am prone to fainting after injections" she was like "right ok"
came back a minute later and I had to moved - again - to a storage room - like bare brick and everything XD its such a pop up clinic so I can't dis but it was just so old and gross. They laid me out and I felt better for being laid out. The lady didnt inject me but the nurse herself just came in and quickly jabbed me!! I was glad it was my right arm too as its the same side as my piercing so at least I have a side I can sleep on tonight! it was sharp but very very fast. She said "I think quick and fast was best for you, you needed to get it done and over with" she was right, I needed it over with about 35mins ago tho -___-
but I had been done. Then I was left to recover. Jack was taken away for his own jab, which started to stress me out a bit as I felt he was taking ages but I was told to stay so yeah, all I wanted to do was find him. He did turn up and we eventually got out the building for fresh air. My brother had waited in the car park for me! He was waiting to see if I was ok. even tho he came alone and I had Jack. So that was nice of him. He did well.
he noticed my "ive had my covid vaccine" sticker
I was like "a lady gave it to me, I told her I didnt need one!" he just shook his head
we came home and it was like 5:10. a flipping jab had taken all sodding afternoon. So I havent been able to get my new lighting up, or draw. But then I have to be grateful of being able to have a jab. Im just annoyed at how long it did take and we had to go down twice! But done now til another 8 weeks.
we had dinner after resting with a sweet cup of tea - mum rang to see how I was and told me my brother HAD to have 2 chocolate bars when he came in XD
Jack is just hoovering as that didnt get done today ether! honestly. I know I wont get any drawing time tonight as I havent done any working out or anything yet. Its 7:45pm. I need to bath and see Ozwald as well yet ><
tomorrow
I am off work and going for a dog walk with mia at 9am after dropping Jack off at work
I am sad I am not going work but I know it is for the best
not sure what else I will do, hey i might just get some drawing done, you never know!
I have been researching ways to help with mental health and anxiety and studies show that doing 10-20mins yoga when you wake up sets you up well for the day with how you react/cope with with stress and to help with anxiety. This means getting up at 6am but I used to get up at 5:50am when i was at home so I know I can do it and I would like to try it. I will start that tomorrow
this is all providing I dont feel like death after my vaccine of course!
