Evening
I slept pretty well last night and woke up 10mins before my alarm so I laid there a little bit then cuddled Jack to wake him up. He says its a great way to be woken up ^^
My anxiety was through the roof this morning
good god
I had to get rid of my stomach content so I was stuck on the toilet just before leaving the house which made us 20mins late for work :( I was dying and sat with hot bag on my stomach on the drive in.
At school I was shaking and felt sick. Amazing what school does to me!
I was stressed out as the door keeping my bacteria in, the battery had gone on the automatic door lock. Meaning I couldnt get in. Meaning I couldnt get on with my day and start growing new bacteria. I didnt need all this and was on the verge of tears.
head of science came in and asked how stuff was going. I said "its horrendous as Im trying to fit 8 hours in 4 hours" he just said "well I have a meeting with Jack in a minute so Ill talk to him" hes not bothered.
I ended up being to talked to by a lot of people today. Time I couldnt afford to give to people but i gave it and ended up not being able to finish all my tasks today. I think I would have got them done if not for the huge delay in getting into the room. Julia had tried the door several times throughout the morning as its next to her prep room. She managed to get in by fluke and gave me a ring so I went up for my bacteria! the door has been fixed but it just offset my whole morning. It was good to see people.
I came home
exhausted
my mum came over to have lunch, she had brought us yet more garden plants and my parcels. We sat and had lunch with Ozwald. I seem to have all my meals with that loaf.
I tried to not go to bed but I felt so drained. I hadnt had the best starts to the day what with anxiety. Then stressing and rushing at work. I think I just had nothing more to give. So I was in bed for 90mins. I got up and did a bit of painting but I didnt feel very productive with my time off. But I have to accept I am poorly and I will get days like this and this why I am part time. I cant think of as not being productive enough I need to think of it as rest my body clearly needs.
I started the dinner as it would take 40mins to cook and I knew Jack would be home shortly
dinner was good and after dinner I did a 20min work out another grow with jo. It was enough. Jack told me not to push myself so I didnt do a 30min one just 20min but yeah it was enough
I had a bath now doing my diary.
Might do some drawing not sure yet
probably watch anime and switch in bed
tomorrow is school and yet more bacteria -____________________-
