Evening~~
I slept pretty well last night actually
I couldnt believe it
thats the 2nd time that having a bath has helped with sleep
to be honest last night i had Oz on my lap and i fell asleep with him
on my lap he didnt budge XD thing he was dosy himself
so i took him to bed, did my teeth climbed into bed and fell asleep
i didnt read my kindle or txt adam good night
just dead
today i feel like utter crap
i seriously do
i am like a dead weight i have no strength or energy
so we didnt go swimming
we just went to the bank so i could hand something in
i needed photo ID and the woman took my driving license from me
and said "is this really you?"
-_______-
i have this like every time i show it
YES ITS ME!
i was 17
and in a bad place mentally, very cynical and hating the world
i had short dark hair like a boys hair cut
so its like 9 years old and im in a different place now
i look different and she pointed out its up for renewal in november!
so i wont have to use that photo anymore XD
we came home and had lunch
ive been falling in and out of sleep all day to be honest
like being narcoleptic
i dont want to sleep cus it means i wont sleep tonight
mum took me for a short walk
the fresh air was good but it was tiring
it was a shame i couldnt see adam today but he was going out tonight with
work friends he'd organised so at least he did something
he weighed himself at the gym and said he's lost more weight
he's doing good
and he had a hair cut and shave today thank god
the whole year ive been in his company not once has he seen friends or gone out
so tonight him going out is good and i want him to do it more often
i sat and painted tonight
just what i felt like doing
so ive painted a wolf
still looks like a 12 year old has done it but it kept me quiet
i will photograph it and bin it probably
tomorrow i have got school
a new school for me working in the youngest class
all sodding day
if im feeling like this tho im not gonna go
but i will still get all my stuff ready tonight as i would like to work
and thats today
a total waste of a day
sick of having such a sickly body
