I haven't been on my laptop
just haven't been interested enough to go on it
my week has been alright I guess
I have been doing displays at school
which has impressed all the teaching staff ^^
i feel useful for something as i am clueless about science
i have done a 'science of cats' display for a teacher who is a cat fanatic
and is leaving on tuesday so we will be unveiling then to her
ive done a GCSE biology display and started A Level biology display
been given a load of stuff to do a 'forensic' display
so yeah its giving me stuff to do which i enjoy
as ive been using paints, papers, pens, etc
and its nice to be able to show off my talents
ive had maggots to tend to
heart dissections
and bacteria to grow which i actually did wrong
but re-did it today hoping it will be alright for monday!
i stayed over at jack's on wednesday
i thought we were gonna have our first confrontation
he got out of me what i was like at the weekend
you know the overdosing, the suicidal thoughts
he was not impressed that i didnt tell him
in fact he was hurt, i thought he was gonna cry on me
he said he was upset that i couldnt rely on him enough to tell him, that i went through it, that he wasnt there to help me.
yeah i felt crappy as he said id promised him id tell him next time i felt like that
and i had forgot i made that promise
but i argued that i didnt want to ruin his weekend with friends
he said i was stupid for thinking that way
that seeing his friends wasnt important compared to me and how i was feeling
yeah i wasnt expecting us to hash all that out
i was scared he was gonna shout at me or something
but he didnt he was calm and wasnt hurtful so i coped alright
i understand hes just concerned really and loves me loads
i didnt manage to go yoga again
but i did do 30 mins tonight by myself which was good to do
id like to dance tomorrow morning if i can
ive been working on the picture Liv has asked me to draw
she wants a picture of her dad and dog so ive done this so far
just got the background to do
i got jacks mug in the post
it looks good i will have to photograph it
i dyed my hair again this week - pink
once again it didnt take
so im taking this as jo isnt suppose to have pink hair
as i dont want to bleach it
tomorrow i believe im seeing jack
but god knows what time he will wake up after a night of full on gaming >.>
he says he needs a bag and a suit so looks like we're shopping for him tomorrow
he hates shopping XD but i might be able to see him in a suit
which i can not imagine
