Evening
I did yoga with Jack, had a hot chocolate and watched Inuyasha then was in bed for 9:45pm I had had enough and slept through the night
Today I didnt have to die on the toilet which was as we were actually on time for school
School was hard, just a lot to do and a lot of running around, and of course I had my bacteria to do, which had grown over night! I took these cloudy bottles of bacteria to show the biologists - just so they would be happy that I was able to produce results again ^^ Took me ages to get all my jobs done and I was so much pain for whatever reason, pain was just bad today, I also had the headache I have been having for about a week now and of course just being tired.
fed up
I txt mum at lunch saying "think I can manage a tea with you later" but I felt so knackered
got to 3pm I txt her saying "I am done mum, I am sorry but it will just be collection today"
we collected Oz who I had to round up from beneath a heather hes made a warren under. I felt my eyes welling up with tears as I told my mum that I was sorry I didnt have time for her and that I am exhausted.
We came home and jack laid out the picnic blanket and made us tea we drank it outside with Oz who kept running across out blanket as he likes the crinkly sound he can make on it. I relaxed a bit as I had my pain killers. I did dinner whilst Jack showered
I ate dinner and of course had tummy ache. I laid in a ball on the sofa and kept falling asleep, Jack in the end bought Oz in to wake me as he said if I slept now I wouldnt sleep tonight which is totally right and I glad he kept waking me.
So I spent some time with Oz who yawned in my face, did a stretch and poos fell out him bum -___- incontinent Oz? just gross. Then when i took him home he bit my thumb as he was so quick to snatch the treat from my fingers that he caught me. I know it was accidental so I didnt yell or anything.
Now I will do my exercises as this is my life
I wake up, get ready for school, school, home, cook food, stomach pains, exercises, bath, bed
repeat
and any time I gain at the weekend goes to others and house work
my life
this is my life
I am constantly tired and in pain and have to do things as this my life now
I am doing so well to hold back the tears as I write this
just had enough
I need my body to get better but doesnt seem to be happening any time soon
Jack is gaming with Harvey and Theo, i told him I dont care when he comes off as I will go to bed without him, feel bad keep making him have early nights with me.
Tomorrow is school and thank god its friday.
I have my big double practical which I will be glad when its over. then it will be the weekend were I have to do all my chores and see family.......I sometimes feel like overdosing just so I can sleep for days but I know overdosing doesnt work that way
well best get on with those exercises
