Evening
I am STILL poorly TT^TT just what the hell man >.>
I was up til midnight unable to sleep due to aches and a burning stomach I just could not get comfy with. So yeah I was up doing a few things really until I felt I could maybe sleep
However I was having a nightmare in the morning, I knew Jack was up and kept coming in to see if I would wake but I couldnt wake up I was praying he would wake me but no he kept leaving the room so I had to remain in my nightmare!
eventually he woke me at 8:50am and said "im going to my mums soon"
nooooo! I wanna go!
i looked mega rough this morning, couldnt wake up and felt drugged and hungover with a splitting headache. I told him I wanted to go. He let me have breakfast and drugs to see if I would pick up but realistically, I was going no where T^T I missed out!! I was so annoyed. Kinda glad I didnt go tho as I had to die on the toilet.
I txt my mum and she said she was just nipping out by her self a.k.a without dad so she would pop by. She came in for a brew and I asked her if she would the same route I did yesterday with me. So we did that. On the walk she said "yeah you're not going tomorrow. You will also ring up the doctors for a doctors note" 0.0" well thats me told! Guess I must have looked bad walking.
shes right tho, its just I had it in my head I would go back to school no matter what tomorrow T^T
I am just frustrated by it all you know? gone on for 7 whole days now
she left and Jack came home as I was cooking my lunch meat
we had lunch, Jack made me lunch he made me 2 wraps which was nice of him and what I felt like but my stomach afterwards just was so painful, my brother phoned. I then did a tiny bit of painting then at some point just passed out on my bed.
I woke up knowing I needed to spend a lot of time in that kitchen ><
I enlisted Jack's help as I needed help to get it all done
I made a cake
made meatballs with a 1kg of mince and then made it into a pasta dinner. pasta
pasta, I have not had pasta for over a year. I went massively off it. I tried dried pasta (obviously cooked) and couldnt bare the texture. How did I used to eat so much of the stuff!? so matt suggested I give fresh pasta a go. So jack bought fresh pasta yesterday. My first time trying fresh pasta.
I was able to eat it. But if I am honest I did not enjoy it. it did nothing for me. Like mush in my mouth. I have no missed pasta. I have tried bread and that doesnt do anything for me. Like I have gone off some carbs. weirdly. its ever since a did that diet last year. food hasnt been the same to me. i spent two hours in that kitchen and i dont feel I got a lot of that. Jack enjoyed it and appreciated it as hes a normal person and enjoys pasta. I said to him i will not be doing that dinner again. way too faffy for little return. we are having the rest of the meatballs on wraps tomorrow for dinner so at least tomorrows dinner will be easy! cus today killed me off!!!
I had a bath and a massive pamper in the bath and out the bath. Hoping to try make myself feel better. feel human -______- I wanna be better. I am so over this now.
I now feel rough. I am tired and cant wait for my bed. so done
we've given Oz plenty of fuss today he loves having us both around. Hes so sweet. he's 60 in bunny years bless him.
tomorrow~
well tomorrow I should be in school! so Jack will be there, covering for me T^T
he will have warhammer after school so he will be late home but he has the car so he will be home quicker than normal at least. Mum said she will come see me :)
please please let me feel better tomorrow
i hope I sleep tomorrow too
