Konbanwa~~
I woke up for a wee in the night, woke up at 5am and was pretty awake after then. Annoyingly
So this morning I felt sicky anxious but I knew it was just because of my test
Jack did go through some questions with me after our break at work, he just said them not wrote them down and I got them right. So I was feeling quite confident and wasnt too nervous come actual lesson We were given 20mins to do the test, I finished in 7. So I checked my answers
I actually got 32/36! I was aiming for 30 so I was happy with that
a few kids got full marks but Luke was sceptical but its what you get when you mark each other's work. Lowest was 25 marks so I am glad I got what I did really. If I hadnt revised I would have probably got around 10 to be honest. I would have felt real dumb. The revision was needed.
I came back and announced my marks to Jack and he was so happy and proud ^^ He asked where I lost marks and I said I lost 2 on the diagrams, which is when Luke said lots of people lost marks there as its such a bad photocopy. Julia assured me that on an actual exam paper it will be clear and not a copy of a copy of a copy....yeah I couldnt tell what the arrow was actually pointing too! But it was experience that diagrams can look different.
Lunch was needed, and I txted mum what I got in my test ^^
I had my occupational health appointment at 2pm. Lasted 56mins
the lady on the phone was very lovely and I had to go through all my illnesses, my medication, how I feel, a depression test (done these like 1000 times in my life), we talked about my dyslexia and that I think I have ADHD and she said I might be able to get screened for that if theres funding. Which I would do as it means not going on a 3 year waiting list from the GP. She finished up with
"so I think youre ok to attend a meeting about your absences"
come again?....
"what meeting?"
"well because you have over the limit of days off, you have flagged this service as part of the school's protocol. You will need to have a meeting with your manager and a member of HR to see what can be done about your absences and if you need to be disciplined"
I suddenly felt panicked. I had no idea I was having a meeting with someone high up
and disciplined!?
I said "well as long as I have my manager with me as hes my partner too"
she said "no you cant have him there if hes your partner, its conflict of interest"
so that was a meeting I now I had to do and by myself. I felt sick
"why am I being punished? I was poorly I had a sick note from the doctor"
"people do feel like theyre being punished but it just to see if any chances can be made so they can keep you in work and not have as many days off. I believe you will fall under the disability act and as such they will have to support you"
I came off the phone and thanked her beforehand
then cried
I think it was cus I had had an hour of talking about my health - which I HATE doing
and finding out im having a meeting, with no support to be potentially disciplined
Jack found me as I was opening the office door to let air in, I was hot
I was crying, he made me a tea and talked it out with me. I can have a friend there in the meeting and he said he would go as a friend and get his manager to go as hes still my manager just not direct line manager. its head of department and hes nice enough
i was left feeling quite drained tho by this point
luckily there was less than an hour to go
we got home and mum was home, she had been watering the garden with Ozwald
I had a brew with her and then we all left at the same time as I had doctors appt with Jack
they were running 40mins late so it about killed me off waiting in the car for him but had to be done I guess. Hes got to go to neurology and have a blood test. Its cus he has drop foot for the second time.
We came back and had dinner, then I had tummy ache - pulled pork leftovers strikes again
did 10mins of exercise as it was all I could manage
had a bath then just doing my diary whilst Oz eats me out of house and home
friday tomorrow
and then I would have done my first full week back this term XD
I hope I sleep tonight
