Evening
Once again i couldnt sleep and was up with Jack til 12:30
becoming a regular feature this >.> Im so sad with it, fed up, and tired
I woke up at 8:45am so I had a bit of a rush to get out the house, Jack helped me get my lunch together
it was only as I sat in the car at 9:45 did I think "never went to see Oz this morning"
I went to meet up with Lizzi, we were meeting up at an old Abbey
I could not believe how damn busy it was but they had got halloween things going off so there was just woman and children everywhere. No men XD men were replaced by push chairs I think. Kids were dressed up in costumes. Very busy
but we had a nice walk round, it was cold and the sun never came out sadly
after walking for an hour we got lunch from the car and found a quiet area with a bench which was nice as no one was around to bother us.
We talked about lots of different things. I am amazed how comfortable I feel round her and how easy she is to talk to. I would certainly go out with her again.
She said at 1:30 "We can call it here if you like Jo"
I said "yeah thats fine with me"
she said "yeah its gotten quite cold and your lips have turned blue".....seriously......on my first date with her I couldnt hide my corpse like nature!!! I got to my car and yes they were blue on the inner bit and purple on the outer bit. Jesus
I was frozen. Like frozen to my core. It was 9c with a wind. I only had a thin jumper on an a thin jacket. I really need to get a warmer jacket and FAST
On my way home I called in White Post Farm - where I got Oz from
I went into the pet shop, they had baby bunnies with blue eyes! its cute but also slightly weird looking
I looked at what I could spoil my bunny with. I brought him ANOTHER tube. But its shorter and padded, it has the same carrot pattern on it which is cute. I also brought him some flavoured popcorn as its the only treats I am giving him on his diet.
I came home and Jack made me a tea, I overdosed on pain killers after necking my tea and went to bed wrapped in my dressing gown. I needed to warm up
I woke up 90mins later and felt better. I didnt even talk to Jack or see Oz when I came in, it was simply drugs and bed.
So I got up and sat with Jack and Oz and showed Oz his new tube which he loved and didnt hesitate to go through <3 he was also VERY affectionate. Like he had really missed me. So that was lovely. All day he has been loving
I gave my mum a call
then made biscuits
then did dinner
after dinner laid on my bed, tired
had a bath and got Oz in again
so yeah a good day
another day of doing nothing for myself or art work.....
then I get txt off mia asking if I want to go for a dog walk tomorrow morning TT^TT I know I should really, so I said yes. Thinking 'thats my morning gone' then in the afternoon I am seeing mum and Karen as we havent seen her in a year. So thats my afternoon gone as well
another day without doing stuff for myself or art
but its fine I guess -______-
i know really its best to see people and things but I am just sad as its almost time to go back to school and I havent done anything I said I would do. I ether have had people to see (people insist on seeing me when I am not at school XD) or I am simply shattered as I havent slept properly in weeks.
ughhhh
I just want to be in a coma for several days, wake up, do my art and eat sweet things. Then go back into my coma for rest and escape from pain and food thoughts
anyway
so tomorrow
walk with mia then seeing mum and Karen in the afternoon
I have my Thai curry to put on before I see Mia
hopefully I will wake up in time ><
will I sleep tonight I wonder? or maybe my body wants to see midnight again
