I woke up at 8am
my god the state of my bed...what had i been doing in my sleep!?
bottom sheet was off, the duvet pulled away from the wall and frame, plushes everywhere and on the floor, it was a mess
god knows what i had been doing
i got up and went to put pets out but it started raining
and rained all morning
i was gonna see mia at 10am but she rang to say rob's parents had invited themselves over
and would i mind coming over later as its not the same as you cant talk how you normally want to in front of parents. that was fine with me as all i was doing today was painting
which i can say i have finished!!
its alright i guess
i just dont feel im improving
i asked jack if he thinks the art teacher at school would mind giving me some pointers
so i might take my sketchbook in tomorrow
after i finished painting
i feel asleep, woke up and went mias for a few hours
met walter the whippet
who was like Bambi, his muscles havent developed so he cant do what he wants to do
its very sweet but he will soon grow and develop that im sure
todd was there too who was asleep on the sofa the entire time
its good hes being so good with walter what with him being such an old dog
i left there and had dinner when i came home
rolled around in pain for a bit
my god i ache
and im hoping its cus i havent done any exercise today or that i did a lot of exercise yesterday
i could not be bothered to do anything tho
im tired so tired and in pain
its hard to do anything
but somehow i forced myself to go for a walk then did a bit of yoga
cant say i feel much better so i might treat myself to some pain killers tonight
im on my last week of medication!
literally counting the days
days until im free
free after 9 years of poisoning myself with them
i need to celebrate when im off them
cant wait for my bed
im gonna sit with oz and do my nails and go bed
ive had enough
tomorrow is school
ive got such a busy day at that
ive gotta be on it tomorrow otherwise i could easily make a lot of bad mistakes
got all the compost in my car to take out too
wish me luck
