Evening
I did sleep better last night
but I was a mess this morning, I was anxious AF. struggled to get off the toilet, stomach felt knotted so sat with hot bag travelling to school, shed a few tears on the way to school. Walking into school I had an anxiety attack. My breathing was awful. Youd put me down if I was dog. So I was on the floor recovering. It did a real number on me. i dont feel I even got my lungs back to normal for the remainder of my shift, despite using my inhaler 5 times ><
Jack almost bought me home and was gonna work from home but I insisted I would be fine driving. And I was. I had got my shift done and got home. I need to give myself credit sometimes. My body is going through a lot and not absorbing my meds, I dont think I got much out my antidepressant as it felt like I very much couldnt cope with the day but I did it!
I had lunch with mum then slept for 2 hours
once up I ordered the curtains I was looking at yesterday and some much better quality ones for the living room window. Spent £145 on curtains T^T money we didnt have when we first moved in and bought cheap curtains. So I have thermal, black out ones on the way!
I then had a brew with Oz, prepared dinner for when Jack comes in I can just put it on.
got stew to prep and not sure what else as I am pretty dead
tomorrow is school, I hope to have a better day at school tomorrow and not an anxiety attack
