A congratulations is in order
Ive done my first week!
I survived!
Last night I was in bed for 9pm
I had had enough I was mentally drained
honestly just drained and couldnt be arsed to stay up
i was that tired i didnt bother watching the last episode of Task Master
and I love that show
I woke up at 6am as I have been all week
stupid body clock making me even more tired by sticking on more time to my day!
i got up for school and felt sick but knew it was anxiety
i still shoved a brew and cereal down me tho
dont think i sat with Oz tho just too tired to and he was happy to go outside
school was alright
sam told me to tell the head of TAs of my dyslexia
i didnt want to be a bother to anyone but she seemed to feel it was necessary
so i told her and also told her ive got to leave early on 21st for a psychology appointment
I was in the cold cold nursery all morning
which was just what i call 'crowd control' just making sure theyre happy and safe
easy enough
but had to stand outside for 45mins
safe to say i was rather cold
and when it became lunch time i stood running my hands under the hot tap (steam was coming out) for a few mins until i had feeling in my hands and they had turned red
but i could feel them
lunch was cold and half way through i went to main school staff room
found a few faces i knew
so warm in there ^^ i know where to go in future
after lunch i was with the foundation class i least prefer - class 8
but sam pulled me away for groups which im still getting my head round
i came with her to main school to see where some equipment is stored and the computer guy talked to me about doing 7 days residential trip in december with year 5 and 6 to which theyre doing classroom activities and walking i told him id think about it.
then the dept head came to talk to me and shes starting my induction process on tuesday seeing to any support i may need and sorting out school bits
then sam said she'd sort something through with me on the end of the day
head was spinning
ive had a headache from the sheer amount of information
i came back to class to help clean up which prevented me sadly from standing out on the playground getting cold again.
then it was pretty much home time
sam came with me the end of the day to talk about groups i will have to do solo on monday afternoon which i dont feel too bad about and ive brought my stuff to have a flick through over the weekend what a joy
i came away at 4pm not wanting any more information or conversations
traffic was a bit bad coming home but i was glad to get home to
a brew and cake cus my god i needed it
even though id felt sick from breakfast and lunch i thought id eat
i went just dance for 25mins
i was so stiff tho i have to say
so maybe that massage tomorrow will do me some good
i managed my dinner
mum hasnt been overloading me on food luckily
then i washed up cus im determined to keep that up
despite mum offering to wash up telling me ive been at work all day
but i gotta do these things
i can do them
i will be relieved to go bed tonight
i had cake after dinner too
im fat and ugly thats for sure
ordered 2 pieces of make up i wanted to try seeing at the £90 i earned all of last term came in from the agency
tomorrow
not doing park run
im gonna have a 30 min sport massage at 10am
hope i can walk afterwards
from there unsure what i will do really
but id like to make the most of my weekend if i can
here is part of mia's christmas present
i drew her this which randomly popped into my head
then i brought a frame for it
always pressure giving someone art work when they are great at art themselves
but i hope she will like it
i hope i can tune off from work this weekend
