what a day -_____-
last night i slept ok i guess
feel like dad gets up earlier and earlier
but im awake from 6am anyway
the house is always cold when im up at 6:50
anyway i got ready for school
i had forgotten today was flu jab mum reminded me
she knows better than i do XD
when i got to school i was told id be collected
so i just got on with my day then at 10:30am i was collected with a TA and a teacher
from my group and we went over for our jabs
i said id go last cus i thought just in case i take a minute to recover
i told the receptionist that im sometimes off with it
and i told the nurse too who was a dull sorry case of a woman
so i had my jab and i told her id had to sit there a sec
and i didnt feel so good
the nurse got up and fetched me water
the receptionist came in and i said id go wait in the reception area
as the nurse had 1 more person to do
i sat there shaking and i was told i was grey and that i looked white earlier
she gave me a banana and the nurse came to check on me
she said i looked pale and wanted me back in her room
i sat there whilst she did her paper work
feeling like such a burden and needing to get back to work
then i felt really light headed just from sitting there
i felt woozy as well and asked her if this was normal
so she went and fetched the head TA!!! ahhh not her she sees me in a state enough
the nurse came back looked at me by rubbing her hands all over my face What the hell!?
get off me woman cant you see im sweating
the head TA talked to me and i told her id be fine
so she left and came back to me a bit later on
45mins later from having my injection she walked me to class as i felt semi up to it
it was lunch time and so i took the kids to lunch and served them lunch which
tired me out loads
i went to the staff room and ate my lunch which i cants say i wanted but knew
i had to eat kinda thing
but the noise was doing my head in so i came back to nursery were they all asked me if i was ok
i said i just feel off and drained
i left them to sit in the classroom by myself in the quiet and next to the radiator
the teacher came through and said to come collect the children with her and that
she had a creative job for me to do this afternoon
but all i wanted was to go home
id almost passed out twice and had no energy
we walked to the children lining up outside and one of the dinner ladies
said to me that i looked green
so i could add green to the list of pale, white and grey today
i actually felt like i was gonna chuck up
i turned round and a TA said to me i was white
and i gripped onto her shoulders as i thought i was gonna pass out there and then
she grabbed me and so did the dinner lady and walked me inside
i felt so stupid and like death warmed up
i said sorry so many times today
they took me to the head teachers office -____-
were they gave me my second cup of tea from school today and a chocolate bar
the head TA was called in again
and i said that i needed to go home
they said i didnt look fit to drive
so i called my folks and my brother kindly came and fetched me
i got home and got undressed and went to bed
i felt awful
so i slept for an hour and since then felt terrible and like death
done nothing which is hard and boring
and i have done no exercise and binged on sugar today so the anorexic thoughts
are in high demand today i hate myself big style today
im proper fat today and want to starve myself
i ate my dinner in the hopes it would make me feel better
but it didnt and just gave me stomach ache
my parents went to fetch my car tonight thank god
so i have it back now
im having an early night and i hope to finish the week tomorrow
what am i like
ive never had such a reaction to an injection before
now i feel just poorly
ive got a number to ring in case im unwell tomorrow
but i hope i can get school done
dont want time off on my 3rd week!
heres a make up brush i ordered which was sooooooo much cheaper than buying it from the shops i havent used it yet but its the size i was after and soft too :D
