Evening~~
Last night I didnt get home til 1am O:
i aimed to get home earlier than that but stuff didnt happen the way i wanted it to
but me and jack made cookies
we sat talking to his his flat mate Theo for a while
that guy's arm muscles are insane!! like huge and terrifying
we went to watch anime but we didnt in the end but im sure he's capable of
watching my chrono crusade dvds by himself XD
I almost lost the control over Eko at one point so he stopped and backed off
he knows what to look out for im amazed how well tuned he is to me
then as i decided at 11:30pm i would leave he went to kiss me
and i just switched just like that
i woke up and he filled me in on everything
hes still trying to get his head round it all and finds it so strange how different we are
one of the first things he said was that Eko is stronger than me
hows that possible!? we share a body surely strength would be the same
this is the 2nd time he has met her
he said she bit his lip which is what she used to do to adam
and he said she knows what she wants
so when i came too i was almost hyperventilating, i couldnt breathe
the recovery took a bit of time which is why i was late leaving
what a way to end a good evening
so this morning i went to bed at 3am
i needed time to wind down after everything
i woke up at 8:45am feeling strangely numb
like i didnt really feel pain
so i laid very very still not wanting the numbing feeling to end
but eventually at 9:30am i really needed a wee so i got up
pain soon came back
i have rare moments like that and its bliss it reminds me of what a normal body feels like
i did some dancing this morning
my god i was sweaty i worked really hard doing hard fast dances
i waited for mum to come home and made her a brew, told her about my evening even about changing which she never really likes me talking about i can tell it makes her uncomfortable and i know she fears it, but i felt i wanted to share that jack was handling the situation well
then i dived in the shower
i had lunch then did a few errands with mum
one of which was posting my painting ive sent it off now~
i came back and did some drawing for my book of shadows
just a couple of pictures i needed to do
then i had yoga which was good
i was doing hand stands against wall like last week
and 2 other people joined in
i had the most controlled landing tho
muscles! jack is always surprised by my strength XD
im hoping i sleep tonight
but its a thursday, a yoga night which normally means poor sleep
can never sleep after yoga for some reason
so it will probably be a late one knowing my luck
then tomorrow is school
last day before 2 weeks off for easter holidays!
