I know I didn't do my diary yesterday
basically yesterday I didn't sleep as per usual
but I woke up early enough that I could get in the shower before
I was to meet up with adam
I made the effort and wore make up and stuff
we went to the city centre and walked the entirety of it
literally
so I was quite tired but we did take 2 breaks
1st I had a white hot chocolate!!!! jesus I could have it hooked to my veins
the 2nd stop was for food I had beans on toast
I only picked up a pajama set from primark nothing special
just alice in wonderland ones and then some shampoo from savers
only spent £13
adam on the other hand i had taken him for the few odds and sods he needed
then i took him to Hopkins an antique store and antiques are his thing
well certain antiques anyway so he brought a few things anyway
We came back to my house so I could drop stuff off and get stuff
ready for the evening and we sat with Ozwald
then went over to his house we didnt do an awful lot before dinner
dinner was gammon which was nice and then we sat and chatted afterwards
and the topics got a little rude with his dad saying and i quote
"well you dont look at the mantle piece when you're poking the fire"
apparently my face was priceless when he came out with that
adam told me his dad had never said that before and he and his mum were
in hysterics i started to laugh and couldnt stop
he really is a dark horse at times, you think you know him and another new things hits you
At 8:30pm mum had txt ADAM not me, ADAM and asked "when is Jo coming home?"
seriousl!?
8:30pm and im 25!!!
I came home anyway cus i was tired to be honest
mum said that Oz didnt seem happy
so i gave him a fussing and he sat on my knee
speaking of Ozwald here is a card I made adam for his birthday it was inspired by the bunny himself, the rabbit is material scraps and the green is torn paper
Today I didn't sleep well
I couldnt get off as I was plagued by thoughts
I havent felt this down in quite a while
when I woke up in the night i chose to read just to distract myself from my thoughts
When I got up it was pouring down so all pets inside including Oz who was dead giddy about being inside. He showed me that he is capable of jumping on my bed -______-
not impressed, well im impressed he did it, but im also gutted he can do it! i deliberately never put him on my bed so his smell wouldnt go on the bed and so he wouldnt get confident to go on it as usually in the past rabbits have chewed my toys and done toilet on my sheets
I took him home and cleaned my room, did some dancing but really kept screwing up
then I sat sewing buttons on mia's present.
then got stuff ready for lunch cus adam would be joining me
he came over and we ate together
we went for a walk when the weather cleared up then sat with a brew with Ozwald himself
he cuddled me on my bed for a bit and we played pokemon
then I took him home
Saturday night I took the time to draw a picture for CBT as I hadnt done one in ages and she had asked me what my art work would be like now ive had some therapy so I drew 1 picture and I fancy drawing one tonight if not two
tomorrow I have acupuncture at 9:15 - 10:15am
so not looking forward to it as ive asked him to work on 2 points that hurt i cant have anyone touch them and it hurts for me to touch them. friends have caught them in the past and it brings tears to my eyes. its were my arms meet at the sockets and near the collar bone. it is gonna kill
then i have CBT at 12:00 - 1:00
from there i can ether go home, go to adams, or go home and go to adams or just stop at home
depends how i feel
