Tuesday, 4 August 2015

I can't believe I fainted

Good Day~

I painted my nails last night :3
summer fruits~

Today was the day I got my mole removed on my face
I was dead nervous
my appointment was at 10:40 I had let work know that Id be there
at 11ish instead of 10
On the way to the doctors I was nervous and debating in my head "do i really want this?"
But I was determined not to bottle it

The doctors were running 30mins late =.= so i didnt even get seen to til 11:10
there goes me being at work for 11ish out the window >.>
So I texted them to say I had been delayed
When I got called through i could feel my heart pounding

I was determined to be calm and relaxed about it all tho
I got numbing cleaning wipe on the area
followed with the needle to numb the area completely which actually didnt hurt
then he started cutting away and i was doing ok at this point i mean
i was starting to feel sickened by the whole thing
then I felt blood trickle down my neck, alarm and panic bells go off in my head
"MY BLOOD!!" thats when I passed out
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I was sooooooo annoyed at myself
I came to and he had finished and got me water
I felt terrible my clothes were wet with sweat, i was shaking and my ears were ringing
he had stuck a plaster over it, luckily no stitches were needed ^^

He told me to go wait in the waiting room for 30minutes!!
god i was gonna be so late for work
so i sat down a minute feeling terrible and very shaken 
I was looking down at the floor, thats when i saw my mum's legs
i looked up and it really was my mum
i gave her a hug and in doing that action a few tears left me
I was just drained and she could see i was pale and shaky 

so she walked me to my car which was parked outside a corner shop
she took my purse and brought me a sugar drink and a chocolate bar
just to boost me really and bring me round
she looked at wound and we agreed to change the plaster with the spare
the doctor gave me as the one i had on was bloody and didnt look good
so she got a wipe and cleaned me up for work
she stayed with me til i was feeling better
i cant tell you how grateful i was to her, like my savior 
all because she thought she'd pop in and see how was and if id been seen to
i thought the reception had rang up saying id fainted or something XD
but no mum says she has a 6th sense for when her babies are distressed  X3

Eventually I got to work, and I still stayed 4 hours like i was scheduled to
and my manager was fine about it all, everyone asked how i got on
i was so embarrassed to say i fainted but what can i do
i just dont cope with my blood 

the day went slow, and i dont feel like i did a lot
i didnt play with the kids that much simply because i was short on energy
the morning had truly drained me

now I have a plaster on my face 
it should heal ok, he said he left a bit left as it heals better that way
removing the entire thing would cause a nasty scar because of where it is

tomorrow I have work and I am not gonna do myself in as i want
to go to yoga in the evening as last week i was too tired to go ><

I  still havent had the chance to record a dance :(