Konbanwa~
I took pain killers and calms last night
in the hope it would help me sleep!
It did work but I woke up at 2am annoyed that I had woken
but soon went back to sleep luckily
and that was the only time I woke up as I was having a dream aboutt
an old lady chasing me
the chase was getting higher and higher until i realised i needed to
be able to fly to escape her and thats exactly what i did!
it was great until she had the ability to fly also
and thats when i woke up at 7:30am
I got up and cleaned my piglets out
then I showered and got ready to see Jack
we were meeting at 11am at the ice stadium
i saw him in the in queue behind me
i went and reserved us a locker for my coat and bag
we got skates on
there was a fair amount of people there and children too
i was so nervous as i didnt want to fall over!
luckily I didnt and i was much better than jack
something that is a rarity - me better at something than him XD
he couldt go that fast
he said i looked elegant whilst ice skating but then said he put it down to my long flowy lace sleeves which did feel appropriate for ice skating actually ^^
so i went off a few times going fast as I enjoy that
and when he'd had enough as his stamina sucked i held his hand for the last lap and pulled him with my speed he thought he was gonna die
we skated for 45mins so he did quite well considering he never exercises
surprises me how hes so thin
we left there and headed over to a chocolate place
as i needed something warm and knew they did white hot chocolate!
so we both had white hot chocolate and a free chocolate
he had a gin one i had white chocolate vanilla it was good actually
the drink was amazing and the sugar i needed
then we walked round a few shops as he needed bits a pieces
and i didnt mind to be honest
afterwards we went for a brew in the pub we went to last time
and basically sat in there talking
ive wondered for a while now - the short less than a month while ive known jack - that if he likes me but kinda was kidding myself thinking "he couldnt possibly like me that way"
but today confirmed it for me
we talked about stuff about relationships and before i knew it he told me he liked me...
and has done for a while
i started that job 21st feb so not even a month has gone by yet!
must have made a great impression XD
ive told him everything that is 'wrong' with me
and he still decided he wanted to be my friend
i kinda said something along the lines of "are you serious? you can do better. I require a lot of patience" but he was fine with it all and said we could take it as slow as i needed to and see how stuff goes. yeah scary, told him i find it scary
like the immature child i am
i kind agreed but only if he will still be my friend if it doesnt work out and he pinky promised on that one ^^ i dont want it to change our friendship
so i think i have a boyfriend >< not sure how this kinda thing has happened but seems to have happened quite suddenly
ive gone from december crying and feeling like giving up to having a new job, friends and a relationship
we sat together talking, i felt the sugar kick in from hot chocolate and tea
and i know my other half likes jack a lot and i almost changed
i havent changed since september
im not sure how i kept it together
he asked if i was alright i told him i almost changed
what is it about him that attracts her so? never been in this situation before
shes pleased with today's outcome anyway and has been waiting for him to ask us out
but changing is not something i want to do
ive told him tho just in case it ever happens but he seems fine with it
but he hasnt met her yet
i originally said id eat when i get home but as the evening went on
i realised id only had cereal and hot chocolate all day and that if i went home like that
i would get told off
so we ate i had mac cheese with potato wedges which i didnt eat as there was far too much pasta and it was a kids meal, freakin huge kids meal. jack had a chicken burger
then we left as my last bus was shortly approaching
he waited at the bus stop for me
i told him he didnt need to but he did
today my little achievements have been to hold his hand - briefly and to give him a hug goodbye
both good things for me to do as i struggle with touch
when i got off the bus i drove to the Range as it was like a 2min drive and i brought a canvas and some clay then came home
showered, diary, and now gonna get Oz
ive told 2 people about my relationship status - both guys XD
ive spoke to mum about my day but i will talk to her tomorrow about jack
its still sinking in to be honest
im glad and happy just very nervous and has put to rest me wondering if he likes me or not XD
i dont feel pressured and we can see where stuff goes~
one step as a time as he tells me~
