I was up til 1am just aching and wanting to die
had enough
i read manga tho
I want to get through my series of Nura rise of the yokai
I havent read it all the way through
I woke up at 6am and drifted back to sleep til 8am
my sleep way disrupted through the night as i was bloody freezing
This morning I found it hard to motivate myself
I went to go see Oz to say "we've been together a whole year!"
but sadly he wanted nothing to do with me -___-
all day ive tried to see him and all day hes blanked me...
getting blanked by my rabbit on a special day sucks
he's with me now tho hes by my feet XD
I wasn't able to take a photo of the pair of us cus i couldnt even stroke him
let alone pick him up!!
I will get him tomorrow i hope!
anyway here is photos of my lovely little boy throughout this last year with him
He is very dear to me and to me and my family we feel we've had him much
longer than just a year
he has settled in so well, quickly and perfectly
its been such a pleasure to have him in my life
i would say his only "bad" quality to him is that he is very very untidy!
but thats nothing compared to his many good qualities
hes loving, he loves the pigs, gentle, has no aggression, playful, likes treats, not fussy with food
hes so lovely and i am very lucky to have him
i hope we have many more years together!
I didnt do much all sodding day
ive been in a bit of a daze really
I was suppose to see adam today as i do every single saturday
he didnt text me last night
and i just felt a bit unwanted, which is rather needy of me i will admit
today i txt him saying i wasnt coming over and he was like "oh ok then"
dont think he was expecting me not to come over
although he had not invited me as of that point
mum found me reading a manga book on my bed
and asked when i was seeing adam i told her i wasnt
she was very surprised and instantly asked what was up
i told her i just felt like i was in my own world and could be doing with seeing everyone
she said it was fair enough but i could instantly see the worry in her eyes
she was worrying about my mental deposition
i told her i was fine and that me and adam hadnt fallen out or anything
adam rang me up but he wasnt that talkative
it took a while for me to get the conversation to flow
just whats up with him? im finding it all very confusing
and when i next see him am i to go back into how everything was
we have had 6 whole days apart which isnt a lot but it feels like 2 weeks
and in that time ive done a lot of thinking prehaps too much thinking
and i dont know where his head is in with all this
i feel i have questions to ask but like i say i could be looking too much into this
he could be totally fine and just been resting what with feeling poorly
it just doesnt feel like hes wanted me much this week and thats strange for him
but it could just be because he was sick. who knows but i do feel a bit muddled with it all
im hoping things will all be alright when we actually meet up
which i said i would see him tomorrow
i just dont feel like im the right frame of mind somehow
after lunch i told myself i wouldnt sleep
even tho my body was heavy and i couldnt think straight
mum said they were going out but she didnt want to leave me
i told her i was fine
i had got paint out and dances up on my laptop to do and what did i go and do
i fell asleep
yup for 90mins
and in that time my parents had been out and come home again and i didnt hear a damn thing
but if it was during the night i guarantee you i would have heard them before they'd even pulled up the drive! its so unfair how i sleep heavy during the day than night
i was annoyed with myself to say the least
as i got nothing done
the girls had to be inside today as it has rained all day
but its bank holiday and its expected sleet for tomorrow and monday!
lovely!
i did manage a 15min walk with mum just for a bit of fresh air
i went through 2 dances which is the most dancing ive done all week
just not feeling it for dancing at the moment
im gonna do some easter nails tonight!
i hope i sleep
tomorrow i am seeing adam i will i will go
gotta do this
but i decided seeing as its easter and we have our residential easter bunny i would
surprise adam and his family by taking Ozwald up before we are invited up
well heck adam has no idea im gonna bring Oz up tomorrow
id like to sleep over as monday is mine and adam's 1st anniversary and it would
be nice if we could wake up together ^^
